Indefinable

2011-09-07T11:28:00.000+08:00

credits to

July:D

2011-07-16T21:25:00.002+08:00

My Birthday has just passed and now Im officially 21 years old! whee. I am free.

From My last post, I had a few of happening times.

1) I passed my nursing board exam. I am a certified nurse now.

2) From the first picture, its been a while since we took photo together. mmm I miss them.

3) I had twice bday surprises. 1 from my mum,bf and friends and another one from my mum,sis bf and sis friends.( I love them :D )

So, i started working. Adapting to myself in the unit. Had a thick checklist to be fulfilled in 6 months. Pray to myself that I will able to achieve it.

24th June 2011

2011-06-24T10:46:00.002+08:00

Its been a month since I blog. Day4 in Ipoh. Government exam ended. It was confusing . I hope I pass though.

Eventhough its just barely a week we left each other but I started to miss my classmates. I was not a friendly girl since the day I stepped into the college. But i do care for each of everyone in my class. hmm. Wish them luck in their future undertakings though.

I'm chosen to ICU. I was so excited when my principal announced it. So, 4 of us are chosen to ICU. We reported ourselves twice. 1 to the acting ward manager and another one real ward manager who has promoted. *confused*

In 6 months, I have to be competent enough already. At that time , I was curious whether I chose the right place and doubting whether I could achieve the requirements.

I have not much to say. Thats all for now. Hmm.

Post management

2011-05-23T21:05:00.001+08:00

Right now, I'm using an app name Monarch, I don't know whether it's effective another, but I'm gonna give it a try.

He is in hong kong right now, the first few days I'm not used to it because he never leave me more than a week before. The reason I have this iPad 2 is because he doesn't want me to cry, he queued up for 4 hours just to get me this, I really appreciate for what he did because he knows I'm a cry baby, and made me promised him that I wouldn't cry when he is in hong kong. I face timed him, for the first few days, I was tearing because I missed him s much,till I started my night shift and went back ipoh for a few days, I was better with my mum talking to me.

During my night shift, I heard alot of stories about my own hospital. It's like they made me have the urge to just wanting to loan money from the bank and go to other hospital, perhaps overseas. But when I thought of it, the reason I grew up, it's them.

I have to thanked them anyway.

So, I've chosen my ward,

1st choice : ICU

2nd choice : most busiest ward in the hospital

Everyone included my superior were so surprised for what I've chosen.

1 : ICU is a place where 1nurse to 1 patient. A total care can be given to patient and from there, I can actually learn alot about diseases and management, perhaps, a real nurse should be like this. A total nursing care. People were surprised because ICU Is really critical and scary to them . LOL. I love there though

2: the ward, I'm the only one who chosen there, superior and work factor made them refused to go. I'm comfortable with them.

At the end of the day, it's still the principle and sister to choose. I'll be glad if I'm chosen in either one of them.

Needle prick injury

2011-04-21T17:27:00.002+08:00

Today is my worst day ever. I tagged with 2 staff nurse. 1 senior : mouth damn terrible. know how to scold dont know how to settle. another 1 junior : same like me. still new.

I dont know what with today. as usual busy. But work seems like couldn't be done.

Mr A have to take blood. MO paged. I remember sister instructed StaffJunior to prepare for blood taking. Good enough she prepared 2 tubes only.

I was busy doing rounds with doctors. MO came. seeing everyone busy, i left and assist him.

He came as usual. The trolley was lack of things. i ran out once. and i wanan run out again. he asked me not to leave and he was angry. he took the blood and angrily pass the syringe with needle.

i wanna take the syringe. but the needle accidentally pricked me. at first i thought it was normal because there is no blood. until the blood flow out.

CN was like 'omg chai what you did la '

its not that i wanna be in this situation. I was my fingers under the running tap water while pressing the blood.

of course i cried. because I couldn't resist of doing mistake in the ward.

I saw the ward sister and the infection control nurse. Thank god they were understanding and did not blame me. if not i really couldnt take it.

Its not only the ward sister and infection control nurse. Soon, I have to see my principle and my tutors will know.

In my heart I was like ' jocelyn chai, your evaluation will be bad. '

Few days back, after serving medications, my staff tell me not be so panic and anxious. and i told her i cannot do mistakes. she said. somehow, mistakes makes you learn.

after today incident, I tell myself, i will make sure everything prepare well and i must be prepare for every situations and be more competent. I am going to be a Staff nurse. Life and Death of a patient will be on my hand.

This song is good. describe what i am feeling now.

2011-04-15T19:14:00.003+08:00

On wednesday Morning, after His night shift, it was my off day, as usual I make ways to make him come and pick me for breakfast. LOL

Then he asked me what to eat because he was tired and sleepy. and i think. hmmm.. let me check it out at Vkeong blog ( as you all know he is a famous food blogger).

I feel like eating Bah Kut Teh. *sllluuurrrrpppp* He agree but where?

So we decided to go Yi Xin Ge Bah Kut Teh Restaurant.

He loves claypot Bah Kut teh but they only provide individuals. I'm not good in ordering Bah Kut Teh so he ordered 'pai kuat'(3rd picture) and 'sai kuat' (2nd picture )

It look raw and he asked me ' save to eat ah? ' "Save GUa"

The meat was delicious. yumm yumm.

The *suen choi* is not sour enough but it was okay. not too bad.

Actually we knew about this shop when we went for the chicken rice (few shops away) but we didn't really bother to go there.

And lucky enough, He got Saman. like WTF. He's the only car who got the saman.

1 1/2 years we are together and he got 3 saman because of me

1) Rm2.00 tong sui at Old town - Rm300 saman

2) some food i dont remember where

3) 1 week later, there, the Bah kut Teh.

this 3 places are the ones that i introduced him. LOL. sorry Baby.

Management Posting

2011-04-12T17:26:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was my worst day. I never felt like crying in front of my supervisor. okayla. i cried once quarreling with my clinical instructor.

I was assigned to Serve medications and my friend who is supposed to incharge of the ward is OFF. so there are admissions. Therefore, I helped out. Its almost Passing report which is 1.45pm. 1.30pm She admitted. Some big shots in the hospital.

I am Learning and I need Guidance and supervision of course. I dont' know why for the first time i did the admission So slow. I was alone. my staff were busy, So i didn't ask them but they saw me.

When they are done :

Staff 1 said : Chai ah Chai. do finish de not? why so slow one?

me : Oh i need you to check for me.

Staff 1 : ( checked 1 paper when there's 10 paper ) ah ok la.

* Disappear *

Staff 2 : come come I help you . (flipping through the notes )

As i was writting , when I look at other side * Vanished *

Because Its the end of passing report it mean new shift starts.

I was alone there. Those big shots PM staff come out . standing beside me and start speaking Hokkien. I don't know what are they angry of.

Staff 3 : CHAI! what Are you doing ALONE! your STAFF LEH!

me : Huh i don't know la staff. Its okay i can do myself.

then its done. i Passed over and staff 3 checked through. she said ' who teach you this? tell me. '

I kept quiet of course. *holding my tears * Its 3.30 pm.

Thank god my supervisor came out wanting to leave . I told her to check through.

Apparently at first she was reluctant. then my PM supervisor told her that my documents were accurate its just the arrangement. Then only she signed. * was told by my friend who waited for me to go back *

As usual I cried when I heard his voice.I really "CANNOT TAHAN LA" . OMG. Feel so terrible. ahhh...But it was a good experience because I know I cannot count on them next time. Period.

Just a Dream Cover/Remix (Nelly)- Joseph Vincent & Jason Chen

2011-04-01T11:26:00.000+08:00

Verse 1
Let me tell you about a girl who changed my world
I don’t know just how she’s doin’ that
she’s on my mind, she’s takin’ my time
I’m loosin’ my way but now she’s bringin’ me back

She’s my Ipod, I got her on REPLAY
I LOVE THE WAY SHE LIES and she’s making me wanna say
the DJ GOT US FALLIN’ IN LOVE
We like DYNAMITE, and I just can’t get enough

Pre Chorus
What goes up must come down
now baby your not around
I’m layin’ all alone in the middle of the night

Verse 2
Let me tell you ’bout a girl who changed my life
She’s a triple threat and she’s just my type
Voice of a goddess,
can dance to this flow,
she be turnin’ heads everywhere that she goes

She’s my Ipod, I got her on REPLAY
I LOVE THE WAY SHE LIES and she’s making me wanna say
the DJ GOT US FALLIN’ IN LOVE
We like DYNAMITE, and I just can’t get enough

Pre Chorus
What goes up must come down
now baby your not around
I’m layin’ all alone in the middle of the night

My Boyfy and Me

2011-04-01T11:20:00.002+08:00

Let's talk about my Boyfy and Me.

It's been a while Since i talk about him

He asked me whether he should transfer to the new branch eventhough its still at Cyberjaya. sigh. But what surprised me is that he Said he needs to go HK for training for almost a month.

Going overseas to work is his dream all this while. so I really gave him full support. but my tears flow down. I Never never meet him more than 1 week. Its a never thing. Its been 1 year and 1/2, whenever we date, we are like the 1st day couple going for date.

He is not romantic and never be one. guess he is too old for being one. Im younger then him by 7 years so expectation will be there. But i think I'm already good, i did not force him to be romantic.

Basically, people will think that we are a pair of married couple especially when we go out with his nephew (2 years old ) and parents.

sometimes, when i think why our relationship last so long it's because we are not hard on each other. we don't control each other. we are like best friends.

Though he's stubborn but his stubborn-ness brings benefit.

Lastly,

This Guy will be my husband. No one can replace him anymore. I've found the right one.

Bad experience

2011-03-14T18:46:00.006+08:00

I had bad experience with Ms.X.

Never in my 3 years of presentation, a tutor gave me a bad evaluation of how I presented in the class. In front of the whole class.

She told me that I do not listen to comments and trying to cover own mistakes. and perhaps because of that, my confidence has lost. I never like to present anymore.

She told the class that when she scold means she care. I thank her for being caring but I would not want to present anymore in front of her. perhaps, there wouldn't be any chance for me to present to her. Gonna wait for her results for me. I know it'll be bad. gotta work hard for my theories so that i wouldn't fail.

Perhaps , She doesn't like me after all :)

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During the weekends, I went to The Curve and One U to get my presentation clothes. However, I didn't get any because it's expensive. Rm 150 for shirt and skirt at Padini

My friend got it for Rm 50 for both. I told them, I just don't know how to get cheap stuffs. omg. Bad shopper = me.

Boyfy said Its okay to buy them because I might need to wear them if I have to attend any interview or any function in future? * Don't know la *

Oh, I just love to shop with my boyfy. He's my personal fashion consultant although his colour is abit of old taste? LOl. can't blame him. He's old. a 28 years old guy to choose clothes for a 21 years old girl

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Today we Had IV Cannulation class. I was chosen today suddenly and got pricked.

It's been a while since I got pricked. The last time was last year ( urticaria)

I was chosen because my veins are fine. not visible but could feel. Only those who are experience could do the cannulation on me.

I wasn't nervous but when she pricked, i wanted to scream but my reaction ........

FML

2011-03-12T00:59:00.001+08:00

FML. omg! i wanna blog more but i dont have time.

no time to call my mother also

sorry mummy!

ICU posting

2011-03-07T19:31:00.002+08:00

Yesterday ( Sunday) , I went to OneU alone because Boyfy went to his ACS Klang school gathering, couldn't believe because I'm dating a guy from ACS. I never like ACS guys in Ipoh. Typical Convent girl I am .

So it was awesome because I watched movie alone. Boyfy bought movie ticket for me and gave me the credit card ( to get the movie ticket not to shop. LOL ) I watched I AM NUMBER FOUR. movie is nice but the starting->climax->ending is expected :D. So yeah. Didn't really shop for things.

Had Assam Laksa with Boyfy after that at Kepong. Its the best Assam Laksa i've ever had. DInner i had Tom Yam soup only. i love both of that besides Lui Cha. but today, i had stomach ache:(

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Saturday I went to Cousin's house because my Grandmother cooked Lui Cha. The only food that i could eat day and night with big portion .

Boyfy said : This is the only food that you eat more than me.

I took a big bowl of lui cha and ate his portion because he didn't like it. LOl * Adore Lui Cha so much * heeeee.

My cousin is pregnant with 6 months :D. its a Girl! couldn't believe my eyes because we used to play. She's the eldest and she took care of us . she loves us . we love her :D wish her baby will be as pretty as her :D

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Back to Reality . Today is Monday. many things to do. feel unwell. just took 2 tab of panadol.

Went to interview my Charge Nurse ICU.

I love my Charge Nurse so much. 2 hours of conversation. 1 1/2 hours interview. 1/2 hour motivation. I love to work in ICU actually but because my Principal said there are no more intakes of fresh grad to ICU therefore I changed my plan to OT.

My CN (charge nurse ) said there will be no more senior staff nurse anymore by end of this year. the most experienced will be the 3rd year of Staff nurse.

So the management definitely wants fresh grad to ICU and ask me to apply. Confirmation

ICU will be the place and Ward M will be the 2nd choice . That ward is alike ICU so its only this two . wanna specialize in Critical Care or CardioThoracic in Future :D

And so she mentioned What should prioritize in life as a nurse. She is Married and Family to her is very important. She is offered to be the nurse manager but she turned it down because she wants to be an ordinary working lady with a stable job and family.

She even taught me how to communicate and understand my love one. LOL

It's March

2011-03-02T00:25:00.002+08:00

It's March!!! SO fassttt!!!!!!!!!!

8 days i've not been blogging. Too stress to blog.

Never i got scolded so badly every single day because of my English. seriously, My english has improved since I came here but not good enough. so everyday got scolded by my tutor on my literature review. To the extend i told my friends that i hate English.

Actually it's my fault because i don't read a lot. and when i don't read a lot, my english command will be bad. *regret*

given to my Boyfy to edit my english. and got scolded . WTF.

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watched Burlesque. *listening to their songs over and over again*

Too awesome. Christina Aguilera's voice is awesome.

List of Burlesque songs

1. Something’s Got a Hold on Me – Christina Aguilera

2. Welcome to Burlesque – Cher

3. Tough Lover – Christina Aguilera

4. "Long John Blues" – Nikki

4. But I Am a Good Girl – Christina Aguilera

5. Guy That Takes His Time – Christina Aguilera

6. Express – Christina Aguilera

7. You Haven’t Seen the Last of Me – Cher

8. Bound to You – Christina Aguilera

9. Show Me How You Burlesque – Christina Aguilera

10. The Beautiful People (From Burlesque) – Christina Aguilera

Okay maybe for a young adult like me would like all these musical/drama thingy.

and My boyfy who is so fussy with movie, He say its nice (non -verbal). Normally, If the movie is boring he will say its boring and criticized them from head to toe. But if the movie is nice, he will keep quiet. so that day, he kept quiet,

Well, i think there's nothing for him to criticize. because the Actress are hot and sexy. Guess he was distracted.

and I got distracted because of him :

He is Jack ( Cam Gigandet ) :D Hot guy + Hot girl + Hot movie = TOTAL AWESOME !

Research and Management

2011-02-22T21:55:00.004+08:00

Research and Management. What is That? Its indeed New for me . For the few years Ive been studying Nursing. All about anatomy and physiology, disease, management and treatment for the disease.

My group has decided to do : To Improve awareness among student nurses and staff nurses on Pain as a 5th vital sign

This Topic has been presented by staff nurses in the hospital but not in the hospital. So we are getting this.

Initially we wanted to re-design the old *starbucks* (no longer there already) into a health resource center. But we think there are less literature review and it's not a nurse job. hmm .

This semester is all about group work. True colours are revealing 1 by 1. My true colours has been revealed since semester 1 so yeah, innocent girls are getting scarier.

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I am fat. I do admit I am really fat seriously. But It doesnt affect me at all for wearing clothes, self-confidence, etc etc.

My BF and family love me for who I am

I really sympathize those girl who don't love her ownself. She would rather drink diet tea and had diarrhea for more than 5 times/day.

Yes I do understand how terrible is it to be called as fat. But Self-loving isn't it better?

Apparently long term consuming diet tea causes kidney failure. I wonder how true is that.

If you are genetically born to be have more fats than the others, don't blame yourself. Be who You are.

We love you for who you are not what you are

And nowadays, guys love girls who has more fats :D

However, some girls do have attitude problem. Family and Friends are happy for them when they got slim. What annoys and irritates is they tend to brag how slim they are. how their pants size reduce from 8 -> 7 and compare themselves with the other girls who is as fat as her. =.='

Anyway, the earth still have to rotate. Gotta go on with life :)

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That day, I presented on Time Management.

When i reflect back, Do i really have a good time management?

If i do, I wouldn't be sitting and blogging right now. I did not review my Literature yet. and I'm so dead tomorrow.

Many people thought I've grown up and already mature.

But I know I'm not. I am dependent from young till now actually.

All the things was not decided by me. I couldnt choose. I couldnt solve. I couldnt take things at a time.

I really need help.

I need someone to guide me through. Don't force me something That You know I couldn't do.

Long Post.

2011-02-16T19:24:00.002+08:00

Wow, Its been a long time since i Blogged. 4 months. Many Things had Happen.

But I'm proudly to say, I am in my Final Semester , Final Year. Gonna be a staff nurse on JuLy.

I've Passed my Practical Exam. waiting for my House Final Results ( = Trial Exam before the Government Exam)

I Hope I pass :D

Just started my Semester 6. It's much more different than the other 5 semesters. This semester is all about Research and Management.
Each group are required to find a current topic/issue in the College or hospital and we search about it.. Its like a proposal.
Basically our results are from these presentation.
I love this semester because I'm free for exams somehow or rather. .

Valentines Day Has just Passed.
But What's Valentine Day all about? My Friend Who is a Christian Told me that Valentines day Is celebrating for the girl who died for the boyfriend. Colin say is to celebrate his Death?

Wikipedia says Valentines Day is an annual commemoration held on February 14 celebrating love and affection between intimate companions.

Valentine's Day supposed to be a romantic day between couples, But nowadays teenagers especially tend to Take it for granted. Especially those guys who wants to cheat girls. Valentines day is the Best day.

Guess they do not understand what's valentines Day is all about.

For me, I do admit that i dont understand what's valentines day is all about since young. what i know that Valentines day is a day where guys MUST buy ROSES AND TEDDY BEARS for the gf. My bf is old to celebrate all this but he say I'm still young and Its unfair for me if he dont celebrate with me. * :DDDD * But My valentines day was mediocre.

My dinner was not awesome. Because i was late waiting for my Practical exam result. Jam to midvalley. movie at 7pm. reached there at only 6. 20pm. no time for good food. so we only have * . not to mention the name.

Yogi Bear on Valentines day is not too bad. because there are alot of couples watched that too !

After that he asked me to choose perfume. Naive enough, this is my first time getting perfume. so I was quite shy because i dont know what to choose. He asked me to choose. I was in Dilemma. but in the end i got THIS . The fragrance is awesome :D .

dilemma

2010-11-18T22:16:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I just wondered why can't I have my own decision? From young, my path is decided by someone and I obeyed them all the time. Now. I am given choices but I just couldn't choose them.

1) to leave this current hospital and transfer to another hospital.benefit: I could stay with my sister. Unite:)
disadvantages: I'm afraid I couldn't adapt with the new environment like how I get used to here.

2) to stay alone here and continue my original path.
Advantage: convenient, freedom, affordable.
Disadvantages: rental fee expensive. Dangerous as there are many snatch thieves.

I don't know. Undecided

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1 week of visiting

2010-10-31T10:36:00.005+08:00

For the past 1 week, My group are scheduled to for visits . THONEH, Malaysia association of blinds, NASAM.

Good Experience and learning but tiring and hectic. We've been out of the college for 4 days and so many things are not done. I was incharged for the return-demo on tuesday and thursday. And everytime I just couldnt contact the person in charge because her work ends before i even came back. sigh. But anyway, the return-demo has done successfully *phew*

For the past 2 1/2 years, i didnt really communicate with A because she just dont talk to me and look down whenever i pass by her. *I don't Know Why* 4 girls from her group couldnt attend the return demo and another 2 girls dont wanna do it without 4 girls because they were all involved in preparing and all. SO i decided to cancel and all. And tru

e colours coming out. She told me to leave the 6 girls and the other 6 girls will do it ( Total = 12 ) . then the next time the left out could do it again with the same preparation.

She told the left outs that she is gonna do it with the girls and try to ask the person in charge to make another appointment for the left outs. GREAT! I was not informed of that until they went to see the person in charge themselves. *APPLAUSE*. the person in charge doesnt wanna do with them because she is busy. :). * laugh silently*

And so i've visited the National Stroke Association of Malaysia. This is the most beneficial visit that i've ever went compared to other visits. In the hospital, i contact and nurse more patients who had stroke compared to others who are blind, eye problem etc.

Observed how the staff help those 'Strokies' to regain their ability in the normal daily living activity. wanting to be a volunteer there. :)

Specialist Clinic

2010-10-07T21:22:00.007+08:00

So, I'm posted to Specialist Clinic. 8.30am-5pm. 1 hour lunch break. better than wards. 1/2 hour break. LOL.

When my friend asked me ' What shift are you tomorrow?' They must be thinking how Jocelyn Chai the Playful Girl can stand with the time. 6am wake up. 6.30 to work. 3pm come back and continue doing homework.

You must be thinking What homework am I doing everyday?

It's my Reflective Journal. I have to write it everyday what I've learned. When I was working in the Geriatrics Ward, I learned nothing. Maybe I've learned how to clean them effectively or trained up my muscles. Everyday have to transfer them from bed to commode chair and shower them. then transfer them back to the bed or chair if they couldn't walk. I will always remember how 6 people transfer an old lady of almost 90 kg to the commode chair and shower her with the assistance of 2 nurses.

Sometimes I thought to myself, Is that a job of a nurse? General Hospital don't do that because they are having shortage of staffs and other private hospitals have their own worker to do that. What the nurses do is sit at the nurses counter and write report.

Then only I realised, I love writting report. but Nurses are assistance of the doctor. They should communicate and contact with the patient and understand them well because what the doctor do is see them, ask them ' how are you? can sleep? can eat? pass urine ok?pass motion ok? ok, see you' and write prescription, altered some treatment . WOOSHhh. gone Rm80 for the consultation fees. somehow, Nurses can only tell the doctor whats wrong with the patient because nurses contact with patient most.

Specialist Clinic : Okay. not too bad, but I don't like the 8.30 - 5pm. tiring. I was assigned to different clinics everyday. Like today, I was assigned to the Neurologist. Funny Diseases I've never Seen or heard before. It was Great though.the Doctor explained abit and I googled most of it =P

Geriatrics Nursing

2010-09-29T20:52:00.004+08:00

This week I'm posted to a ward. A ward that I got used to it. But now It's turning to a Geriatrics Ward.

Well, I'm oKay with older people. I've been a very Patience nurse to every patient.

But today, It's special.

more than 10 juniors came for Practical with Tutor. There are shortage of staff and students. I'm assigned to Team 1 that is quite heavy with mostly sick patients.

Even though there are 10 juniors but the work seems to be overloaded.

What Happen was

Madam P at Room A . It was 4 bedded with other patients. She's 86 years old and she is conscious about herself.

The juniors were taking care of her while I was busy doing my other work and have no time to see them.

The ward staffs started to smell Feces somewhere but don't know where.

I went into Room A. THE WHOLE ROOM IS filled with FECES SMELL. I went to her bed and saw her Passing motion on the bed without pampers and with juniors seeing her.

I was so angry and raised up my voice on Madam P.

She said that she have to strained her bowel so that she could pass motion.

I understand that she difficulty in passing motion . Enema is given to her. She is stressed about difficulty in passing motion.

She has difficulty in walking as she always complained of leg pain. So minimize of walking will reduce her Pain.

What made me angry was she refused to wear pampers, refused to come down from the bed, and therefore the juniors decided to let her exposed on the bed and pass motion on the bed .

I told her next time to wear pampers, pass motion and we'll cleaned up for her. Or sit on the bedpan. I don't want her to strained her bowel till something happen to her that she couldnt go home.

I know I was wrong at time to raised up my voice to her. But She was exposed, she forced herself to strain her bowel, she is stubborn to listen to our instructions made me really angry at that time.

Now, when I think of it, I shouldn't have raised up my voice to her because she just want to pass motion as she has constipation for few days. It's just I'm too anxious about my patients. Sigh.

Psychiatric Nursing

2010-09-22T15:58:00.002+08:00

This week. I'm posted to Psychiatric Ward at Hospital Kuala Lumpur with 13 other girls and a supervisor.

We are supposed to

Find a case as a case study and present at the end of the week of posting.
To get to know how Occupational Therapy, Clinic works
How Patient go through Electroconvulsive Therapy ( patients who need treatment for depression that uses electricity to trigger a seizure )
Interact with patients and identify their sign and symptoms based on their diagnosis
know about psychotrophic drugs

My friends are excited for me because i'm posted for me. yeah i feel excited at first. and today is only the 3rd day. I could not stand with the environment there. It made me depressed.

They couldn't think rationally. Think we will kill them.

I was posted in the female ward. Basically the reason they become mentally ill is because their marriage has wrecked. they couldnt take the stress. mainly is because the husband has another affair outside and the husband and wife divorced.

When I interview, they cry half way. And I never like that. Cry for joy is okay.

I never like patient to cry. But this what happened when someone is depressed.

and the Male ward is SCARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Their sexual desire is so high till they see the nurses, they start touching them and wanting to rape them.

However, I do have alot of experience from there :)

dilemma. HTC Wildfire

2010-09-19T10:48:00.002+08:00

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Ref: http://www.gsmarena.com/htc_wildfire-3337.php

Ok i'm having super dilemma whether to get this phone or not :(. This phone is the Cheapest Android phone. and its so cute. I don't know whether i should get this phone or save up the money for something else. sigh

the past 5 months

2010-09-17T19:27:00.004+08:00

Its been 5 months since i blogged. suddenly i felt like doing so. i don't know where to start but I'll just pour my feelings out.

5 months ago, my luck wasn't good. I couldn't get my procedures, I couldn't concentrate in my studies and all i know is Fun. nothing else but that. i wasn't motivated as last time when i step into this college. i felt that what am i doing is for the sake of getting the SRN cert. and that's terrible i know.

However, i still get 3.4 in my CGPA and 3.5 in my GPA. exactly the same as semester 3. But i'm glad because my sister, Jovial, bought me a dress as a reward :)

i was lost during that period of time. until then, i came back for my semester 5, 3rd year. my mentor once again, became our tutor in charge. i suffered for the first 2 weeks. One fine day, i was called up by her, and i got bombarded by her.

1. my reflective journal ( my mistake )

2. I told my other tutor about my mentor that i'm afraid of her already because she's no longer the same. i was scolded for telling such. (for the first time )

3. because of some hostel rep who told the disciplinary tutor about my friends who brought alcohols back to the hostel and they were punished. My mentor said we are not united and do not know how to protect each other.

4. laziness of the class

At that time, i couldn't think but cry. She was surprised i guess , because i never cry on front of her before. I cried badly in class and scolded the class. And my other classmates told me that it was my Mentor who set me up so that i could voiced out in class. Well, i've done as what she wanted.

She made me lose Passion in nursing.

But today was different. I've done stapler removal with one of my tutor. and I was required to write about the surgery and the diagnosis.

I gave her exactly as what she wanted. and when i meet her, she started to ask me questions. the difference of craniectomy and craniotomy. definition of debulking of tumour. i couldn't answer well. and she said now nurses are generated from the school of robotic. I felt a slap on my face.

While i was walking back to my room. i was thinking that I am no longer the old Chai Siew Yeng who can think and voice out. I has became an introvert.

I will never let the word 'Robotic' to hit on me anymore.

I'll be different. I'll succeed better than the other girls.

time passed. everything passed smoothly. 12 girls from my class has left in 2 years time. My class made history.

As it goes, I came to realised that I couldnt have good friends here because their jealousy is beyond the top. even my good friends are no longer my good friends. superficial, we are good friends. but inside? we are not. I know i'll never have a true best friend here. As Flora said, the more you treat them good, the more they'll hurt you. so yeah :)

I'm glad i'm not like last time think alot about how people think of me and try so hard to please them. it took me 1 year to stop thinking and doing such. I was much happier.

But somehow, whoever close to me tend to lose friends. I don't know If its because of their friends or themselves, but i know i don't remember they talked about their own friend.

I felt sorry for 1 especially. Him. For a year we are together, he only went out with his friends not more than 10 times and that he have to approached them.
maybe as what he said. they stayed at the same area . and he is far. so they'll tend to forget him.
I don't know if this is the reason but i know now that because of me he is losing contact.

He lost his brother 2 months ago and he is still grieving. I was spoilt by him and couldn't understand the situation he is in right now. He tend to lose temper, impatience, emotional, imsomnia these days. I really don't know what to do. I'm not experience. It's my first time to be in a relationship for a year. I'm confused. I want to run away . Will the relationship ends make a better life?

Labour

2010-04-09T14:59:00.004+08:00

Today is my last day working in the delivery Suit. i'll be going back Ipoh soon with Him :)

Today it was my Lucky day but a sad day for me.

It was my first time having so many patients today because the whole week, delivery was very less. Now mothers preferred caesarian. but me, in future. i would prefer spontaneous delivery.

I got my procedures signed off today. and i'm happy. I get to feel fetal movement and contractions when they are about to deliver. It made me feel like, I wanna be a Midwife. It's not easy though. Alot of emotional support have to be given to mothers.

However, i was not Happy anyway.

Today a mother deliver a dead child. a full term child. The baby boy was so cute.

I believe the mother is being ignorant of herself and her baby because she knows nothing about her baby.

The husband did not come to accompany her. She came here all by herself.

He only visited her during lunch time and went off. he came to Delivery Suit and saw the baby, and walked away without asking anything on management of the dead child.

It's either he was too depressed or ignorant also.

I was so angry that i felt like scolding him for not being sympathy towards the wife. She has to go through 9 months of pregnancy and hard labour.

I was told not to judge someone by its cover. maybe he could not accept the fact this and that.
BUT i don't think how it should be seriously. at least he should take a half day off to accompany the wife.

Hmmp. i wanted to cry when i see the baby.

There goes my last day in Delivery Suite

Vacuum assisted birth and forceps assisted birth

2010-04-06T09:59:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since i actually blogged? 3 months + i guess ?

well , this is an interesting one. From the picture , It's an vacuum assisted birth and forceps assisted birth.

I am currently posting in Delivery Suite for a week . so Yesterday i get to witnessed a delivery under Dr.M :) . He's a nice senior doctor because he taught us alot

I was terrified to be posted there especially this 3 weeks of posting. 1st week : Delivery Suite
2nd week : Maternity Ward . 3rd week : Nursery

The reason is

Carrying baby is a nightmare for me. i'm afraid i'll break their body parts
It's my first time to experience this .
Obstetric and Gynecology is not my thing. So answering questions is just a hell for me .
It's a no joke posting.

So every week we are required to take a case and follow up till the mother and baby discharged.

I am fortunate to take this Mother J as a case study .

It was her First time to get pregnant . Her due date was 14/4/2010. but she safely delivered a baby boy on 5/4/2010 at 0856hours.

I was required to feel contractions on Mother J whether it's mild,moderate or strong. However, i guess i did not feel anything :S I felt rapid contraction but mild? :S

Mother J was complaining pain and wants to 'pass motion' . All pregnant mother will feel the same when they are almost going to deliver because the baby's head is out at the pelvis and to the vagina.

As I'm just a student, I was there to give her emotional support. Her Husband was there too :D

Doctor M came. and everything was prepared. He started to insert the vacuum into the vagina to suck the baby's head as she was pushing. It seems she was not good in pushing so vacuum is required.

However, the vacuum came off and Doctor M uses forceps to clamp the baby's head out.

At last, the baby is out :).

Doctor M then clamped his umbilical cord and cut it :). The baby was taken out for examination.

I wanted to follow them, but i have to be at the side of the mother to give her moral support while waiting for the placenta to be out.

Doctor M then stitched up the episiotomy wound.

It was fascinating :D. Mother J was so relieved and i 'm so happy for her when she saw her baby boy. Maternal and child bond were there :)

Father J was so shocked i guess that he uses he camera to record the whole process. While he was holding the camera, he was stunt by Doctor M's action. Maybe because it was his first time :)

Well, Mother J was sent to Maternity Ward after an hour.

Delivery Suite is a very nice place though. However, i know i couldn't work there for the next 5 years as a staff because i cannot afford to see still-birth. abortion. depressed mother. It's really heartache.

I don't like to work in children's ward because children are meant for the playground and run around. but not in the hospital crying in pain.

That's all for now :)

Colin @ Fei Chai :D

2010-01-17T10:50:00.002+08:00

well. i dont think i've posted anything about him serious. i think i've made our relationship quite close that less people knew i have a boyfriend because having a boyfriend is like a shocking thing. what shock most is that people who i love ignore me. fuck it.

Baby,

Thanks for everything that you've done to me. Thanks for buying me a random dress when i felt like i dont wanna buy anymore before my College night. Thanks for buying me the Chinese Dress for me. Thanks for being there for me when i need you the most. Thanks for tolerating with my princess attitude for this past 4 months. Thanks for lighten me up everyday. Thanks for your jokes and Barney songs which i dont know how u can randomly created it.
You always said i remember your bad things . But actually i remember every little things you did for me. It was really sweet.
I love you for who you are. You are the Best Boyfriend i've ever had. We quarreled about things we don't know about each other. and i know now :).
I love you, Colin Lum Chim Seong :).

turn back the time

2010-01-16T00:01:00.002+08:00

if i could turn back the time when i was in semester 1.

i wouldn't be a 'high on air' person. i would have be friendly to everyone in my group.

i would have been wiser at that time.

i would know how to be a good leader at that time . i would not be easy to influenced by her.

i would not be in deep shit that lead me to now for where i stand.

if i could be a wise orientator in semester 2. my juniors wouldnt be terrified of me.

they would tell me their problems

the miscommunication could be broken down

i would not have suffer and bad news spreading around about me

people would not have bad intentions on me

both semester has a great impact on me when i was in semester 3.

if i could have been better. i would have be in the student council

i felt really bad when the tutors look high upon me but i was not voted by the students.

i cried when i took my results. Its not because i cried because of the results. its because of what Ms. Katherine had actually said to me. ( my results are okay. beyond my satisfaction and from what i've expected. )

Mum cried because of my results. i dont know why. .

and yes i've proved to you. i did not get bad results when i have a boyfriend. its beyond your satisfaction. The Results are for you.

2010.

2010-01-10T09:35:00.003+08:00

hmmph. i hope its not too late though to blog my new year resolutions for 2010. Last time. i will be super super excited when it comes to new year. but now, i'm afraid But i have to go through though.

This year will be my 2nd half year and beggining of 3rd year in Nursing. So much to learn to. More responsibility i have to carry. Its not easy though. but after chinese new year will be my Semester 4 which is the end of my 2nd year. We'll be learning of Obstretic and Gynaecology :D. i Hope It will be a fun subject because the whole semester 4 will be mainly on this. :).

To other people 2010 is not a good year. Some of them had accidents. Recently, few church in KL got attack. 1 of the church is right beside my Hospital. hmmph. I don't know whats with the world nowadays. politics. inflation. hmmph. i was very angry when i talk about it with my friend.

People change as time goes by. same as my family and friends. but i have to adapt to it though.

People are saying that i forget my friends when i have my Boyfriend. Maybe they do not know that at times my Boyfriend was neglected too. I was Very busy with my work, my procedures. working double shift just to get that procedure. skip my meals to get my work done. assignment, homeworks.
Maybe during my 1st year i was very free that i kept contact with all my friends. but now, it was co-incidence that my busy work and my boyfriend come together.
But i still miss them. i tried to attend to all gatherings. I do not have semester break. My semester break is when i need to work. so now , i'm having my semester break. what a break ! :(

3 weeks has past and working in the same medical ward made me know everything little thing about it and if i'm posted there for my management, it will be excellent :).

Today is a sunday. Tomorrow is a Monday. I'll be posted to Day Surgery Unit then Operating Theater. :). It Gotta be fun :).

My New Year Resolutions in 2010?
HAHA. achieve what i need to achieve :). and be a good friend, daughter, grand-daughter, student, and girlfriend :)

To You.

2010-01-03T00:16:00.002+08:00

I know you couldn't read this. but i really wanna express my feelings here.

I dare to post it out. i expected people will read this and make comment about it.

I'm very dissapointed in you for how much you have changed? You were given so much freedom and love.
You blamed that because the family is broken and you changed to be one rebel bitch. but why i didnt changed? you cant think for yourself and mix with those bastard and make yourself like a bitch.
You have a slut best friend who introduce you to the bad world and end up You make yourself like one.
You were a small rat when you r young but now you have turned to be a wild animal?
You made everyone cry because of you especially HER.
She shouldnt cry because of you BUT YOU SHOULD CRY because of her.
You have no Brains no Heart no Sense of Humour.
I Bear with your bloody atittude since early of 2009.
I listen and advice you
I pitied you because you were alone. I spare my time for you.
I quarrel with them because of you because i wanna protect you.
But in the end,
It turned up to be a disappointment
I tried my best to be patience with you and listen to you

But Now.
Never. Never you will see my name pop up in your call list. Never you will listen to my voice.
Never you will get anything from me.
Your Apologize will never be accepted because i will never trust you. Never again.
You Made me cry because you. You will get it.

heartache

2009-12-24T01:58:00.002+08:00

i've realised one of the most heartache incident is when you see your loved one turn to be a little devil who is now being ignorant, having attitude problem, rebel and pampered.

i don't know if generation change but i know one thing. My generation and the older one are just fine. its just the younger ones are being a spoil brat now.

i've try so hard to protect her, educate, tolerate with her, give everything she wants but in the end? it's just the same.

i wanted to be soft to her but i don't think it works anymore. as what Ms. Katherine has said. she have to 'Potong Tali Pusat' . She should learn by herself now. i can't afford to care so much and wasting my saliva to advice her because at the end of the day. my words will be in the rubbish dump :).

all i want for christmas

2009-12-19T23:53:00.002+08:00

oh yeah. christmas is coming .
actually i wanted to go back on that day because i miss my mother so badly. and plus the fei chai promised me that he will go back with me.

unfortunately i got my night shift on the eve till 26th. i dont know if sunday i'm gonna have night shift again. if i have. i gonna have 5 days off. well, gotta pray hard.

Semester 3 has ended today. i'm going for posting again :). 9 weeks till CNY. well this time i'm posted to Operation Theater. that's what i'm excited about. observe the surgeons in doing operation. yay. yay.. then i can explain to those WHO ARE SMOKERS!!!!!! AND ALCOHOLICS !!!!! AND EAT ALOT OF FATTY FOODS !!!!! :DDDDD

anyway, being an introvert and nerd in class was not that bad afterall. my mind is so peaceful.
and i realised that i couldn't take stress. think too much negative thinking
one tell me that everytime i compared myself to higher level, made me have negative thoughts all the time. well other people compare themselves to a lower level, made them happy in life.
actually i couldn't compare myself to a lower level because if i do, i will not progress.

hmmph. its not easy for me to change from the old jocelyn chai to a new jocelyn chai
it do take time .

Mission of 9 weeks posting

get my procedures done ( MOST IMPORTANT!!!! )

to study ( to prevent from getting bombarded by staff in specialised area - OT, Heart Centre )

slim down ( I MUST Prove to YOUUUU. and made you feel threaten. LALALA )

i wanna watch AVATAR and NINJA ASSASSIN. so badly.
can't wait to see mama.

p/s: all i want for christmas 2009 is a good lunch with you.

Twilight with him

2009-11-30T13:30:00.003+08:00

I've watched Twilight Saga - New Moon during the weekends.

Honestly it's really disappointing because i thought there'll be more fights there.

Although its disappointing but throughout the movie, i'm laughing and whacking Colin.

Why did i whack. the conversation

*movie* Jacob took out his tshirt and stop the bleed for Bella.

Colin : WAH!!!! sai ng sai ar. take out shirt just to stop bleeding?
jocelyn : eh WHATS YOUR PROBLEM LAR!!! where to get cloth is at sea side? you jealous people has 6 packs and you have 6 in 1 ? and SO BIG SOMEMORE?
Colin : This is a body show or what ? take out shirt and show got 6 packs
Jocelyn : *whack straight*

*movie* Edward ask Bella ' will you marry me' .. - end show -

Colin : HAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHA... why never say yes? stupid lar this show
Jocelyn : *LOL* whack harder

*in the car*

Colin : Bebe, are you ok?
Jocelyn : No, my soul has left with Edward. My body has left with Jacob . :D
Colin : oklor. get down from the car lor
Jocelyn : HAHAHAHAHHA.

so yeah, he's been criticizing throught the movie was played. and i'm busy whacking him throughout the movie.

However, he knows i love the movie alot. So, he sacrificed his sweet Dota time to accompany me to watch Twilight. Actually it was a surprise that he wanted to tell me it was Twilight in the cinema hall. He told me it was astro boy this and that. In the end he just couldn't keep his surprise because of someone who is being arrogant to me :). Thanks bee :)

Twilight Saga - New moon

2009-11-27T09:59:00.002+08:00

Twilight Saga - New Moon.

i wanna watch it so so so badly :(.

i heard it was awesome

definitely is awesome because Robert Pattinson is acting :D.

i felt in love with Twilight at that time and now i wanna watch it so badly.

wondering who will accompany me to watch. hmmph.

The guys hated it so much i dont know why maybe they are jealous because Robert Pattinson is much more romantic then them :)

sensitive

2009-11-18T15:00:00.002+08:00

How would i wanna start with the word Sensitive? . hmmph. okay.

I am a sensitive person. or perhaps i would say i am not as sensitive as last time.

I was asking Eva whether i've hurt A or not because I couldn't remember what i do or say to other people even if its 5 minutes ago * short term memory i supposed *

Eva say there's nothing i did to A . i was like thinking why she treated me like so cold. or maybe she's been treating me like that since last time. Eva said that there's nothing happen because i've been having misunderstanding with B since early of the year. so A & B are best friends . A don't know how to talk to me etc etc.

Today i was very frustrated, annoyed, agitated, moody. because of the visit i went to. information = 0 . language=0. . sigh. i came back. and the cook refill the taugeh and accidentally splashed on my uniform. sigh. i would scold people if i'm in this mood. horribulus mood. so C is unlucky. she got sound by me . wtf.

Eva said i'm being sensitive that people dont like me and all. yeah , i am. but what can i do? i did not hurt that person but i'm treated as an enemy which i don't like. i'm tired of changing myself for other people so that they don't anti me. i'm tired of gaining good attention from people here.

Hear What Oprah says about Men :). To the Ladies :)

2009-11-12T06:24:00.005+08:00

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is
Don't stay because you think "it will get better"
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.

He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up..

Never let a man know everything.* He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior.* Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...
Even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...
Compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...
There is nothing cute about baggage...
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...
A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...
Look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted

Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.*
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful: Dr. Phill

You should know that:
You're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one.

They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices.
Make the right one.

Ladies take care of your own hearts....

Share this with other women and men (just so they know)...

You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.

I copied this from WilsonCheah's note in facebook. i think its a great advice for the ladies who always get hurt. it do help me :).

SLeep

2009-11-09T00:26:00.004+08:00

I never like to sleep since young especially now in the college because i think it's really wasting my time. during the weekends ( after exam) i think i spent my whole weekend sleeping and i love sleeping now more.

I gotta take Prednisolone (Steroid Medicine) to suppress my Urticaria. On the friday, i did not take it because i had migraine and bad gastric after taking it. and My urticaria came back. so i quickly took the medicine and it subsided. Steroid medicine will make me fat. it do build muscle but i did not do any exercise. so accumulation of fats will be there.:P

Class start. Assignments are coming *oh gosh*. gotta practice skills everyday next week onwards because Practical exam and Finals will be next month. so gotta struggle on the weekdays and ENJOY during the weekends but not for next month though :P

Anyway, Manchester United Vs Chelsea now :) To Manchester United <3 :)

To Colin , They Rocked :) Don't be Too excited over for it :P

allergic

2009-11-03T22:29:00.003+08:00

last friday i had 'foong mok' . i don't know what isit called in english. have to find it out. LOL.
i went for a jab at my buttock and through my veins. and it subsided. *happy happy*

the next day, i went Times Square with Mr.Lum. at night, the foong mok came again. alright, this time i did not take any oysters. i dont know why it came back. i went to the clinic again. given medication and have to take 6 tablets 1 go once a day. i slept. i woke up. it SUBSIDE :D

and then in the evening, it came back. i have to wear long pants, his jacket to protect myself. i went to sleep. this morning i woke up, it SUBSIDE :D this evening, it came back again. with spots. i do look like a 101 dalmation. seriously.

i went to see the doctor. the doctor really dont know what to do. but what surprise me is that she asked me to make 'kunyit water' for myself which i dont know how to and not intended to do it . and she ordered medication for me. and injection is essential. so i got jab again.
this time, the jab was really painful. it seems my veins are nice to see but its fake so whenever they poke, no blood come out. 4 times i have to get poke. and its swollen and painful till now.
well, at least it subsided. i don't know if it comes back again or not, i'm really sick of looking at it.

Thanks to Mr.Lum for buying chicken essence for me. i've gotta drink that everyday to boost up my immune system. it seems, during primary school, i'm like that also. so. it came back again. HMMPH.

class starting AGAIN. exam is on the thursday, and i'm sitting on my bed, blogging unnecessary things. LOL. well. its not an easy semester though. i gotta struggle more. practical exam and finals are next month. case study to do, catching up with studies. hmmph.

p/s: i'm blogging it in a moody state. please bear with it :D

NIght Shift

2009-10-29T08:08:00.002+08:00

ahh. its 8.10am now. after night shift. thank god its the last night today. 1st time doing night shift really an experience for me. 2 staff nurses and 1 student run the whole ward.
1st day was okay. 2nd day was not bad but i really have terrible headache and i couldn't focus and concentrate.
ahh. 3 people running the ward. the other staff was thinking how could we do it? we did it :)
Thank god patient is good.. sleep along the night :)
we had suppers at 2am. 1st night was fried rice and noodles. 2nd night burgers and fries :).
going to have OFF days on thursday and friday :). gotta study. exam is next week.
couldn't blog more as i'm dizzy now. sigh.

miscommunication

2009-10-23T19:32:00.005+08:00

alright this is a MisCommunication Image that i've just found in Google Image.
i don't know why but i love to Google nowadays
Why i posted this up because my group girl has a real big problem which is Miscommunication.
62 people having Miscommunication isit normal? can it actually be solved? but 1 year and 3 months has passed. This word has never been erased from our group .
Miscommunication according to the dictionary - lack of clear or adequate communication
I hated this word so much because it caused so much problem for us. And it do affect each of everyone of us.
It's been awhile since i actually complain about my Group girl.
I thought i will be having a fun,enjoy and relax holiday at Ipoh when i read one of my friend's facebook status stating that we have to achieve at least 1 tutor procedure
before holiday, 2 weeks back, the message stated on the paper was we have to achieve at least 1 procedure.
tutor procedures are hard to achieve though.
i'm going to have my night shifts next week. i do not know whether i could achieve that or not.
it do torture my holiday mood because i thought i've settled everything before coming back home.
i do not know how they receive the message from the tutor and understand it in another way.
this is annoying. i have to go back Kl tomorrow and start my shift on the sunday.

well. what has passed has passed. i gotta achieve it no matter what. hmmph.

Prudential

2009-10-20T22:10:00.003+08:00

yeah. i do have a reason why i posted this picture up. well, It's Prudential . one of the insurance company.
well, honestly, i do hate insurance agent when i was young eventhough i knew nothing about insurance. i felt that they are REAL REAL REALLLLLLYYY ANNOOYYYIINNNGGG..
see. how annoying are they till i have to express in such a way.
so i went to this Business Opportunity Presentation by Prudential and i realised that Prudential is good.
The concept is just caught my eyes to one point i was like ' OK. I WANNA BE AN INSURANCE AGENT'
Then when i come to think about it, i couldn't do that because i do not have time to do another job since what is in front of me is just so busy. Alot of things that are right in front of me to accomplish. so yeah :).
maybe one day if i'm not interested in nursing, i would want to be in Insurance :)

cameron highlands

2009-10-18T22:50:00.001+08:00

Me in Boh's Cafe? LOl

was acting cute as usual :D

aww. just a titanic scene :)

yay, after for more than 10 years, i actually went to Cameron Highlands.
i heard it was not as cold as last time.
i don't know whether i'm old but i just couldn't take the highway to Cameron anymore.
i felt really nausea during the journey and i could vomit anytime.
We went to the Boh Tea Plantation and there's cafe there.
well, they serve good tea but their food is no-no for me
so later on we went to the Top of the Mountain*the last picture*
So cold. So nice. So breezy. So-wanna-hug-him at that time :(
then we went to the town and walk around.
my mother bought vegetables there and me and Jojo was like looking at the food and wanna eat :D
dinner - had steamboat. LOl. but the food is not fresh and made me had diarrhea :(
But anyway, i'm going there again but with him :)

sleep sleep

2009-10-17T21:48:00.002+08:00

'Robert Stickgold, a sleep researcher at Harvard University, suggests insomnia and other sleep-related problems could lead to a range of mental health conditions including depression, post traumatic stress disorder and attention deficit disorder.' - www.cleo.com.au

i read this from Cleo online. i know a few who has lack of sleep everyday and now i know why are they acting so weird.

so whoever read this, please SLEEP MORE!!! ahh i gotta sleep more too .

LUCKY

2009-10-15T19:01:00.002+08:00

i never thought i will be this lucky that a doctor actually talk to me and tolerate with me. here's the conversation

Doctor : ah, girl, are you the one who is doing STO ( removing stitches) for A?
Me : Yes doctor, why ar?
Doctor : oh, She wants to go back tomorrow, can you do it next monday?
Me : huh? I can't doctor ( wanna cry de ) . i'm going back my hometown for long leave. can she do it this Saturday? because as plan, she have to remove this saturday right?
Doctor : yeah, but its Public holiday. oh gosh, let me count. Monday i did the surgery. tuesday wednesday *mumble mumble*.. ahh..can you do it on the friday?
Me : :D well of course doctor.
Doctor : :) you come with me, i tell her that she's gonna stay one more day then friday you do STO on her then she can go back
*walk to the patient's bedside and explain. patient agree :D *
Doctor : i wanted you to learn. you are sponsored by this hospital?
Me : yeah, i'm sponsored by here. Thank You so much Dato .
Doctor : its okay, Next time you can do already right :)
Me : yeah. Thank you so much Dato.

All the Staff smiled at me. aww, i'm so happy :). i hope i could do it tomorrow. praying really hard. :)

i felt lucky this few days:). lucky i got alot of procedures before i go on my leave. well. i really thank those who help me so much especially staffs, seniors :). thank you :)

Maternity Ward

2009-10-12T17:42:00.003+08:00

well, yeah i'm posted to Maternity Ward this week :) well it's been 2 weeks i've posted to ICU and going back to a normal ward its really hard for me.
the 1st day i'm posted at Maternity, i just couldn't function myself. i don't know why. i've got used of being fast and all. suddenly in Maternity, everything go slow and relax. i just couldn't take it
I wanted to go ICU after i graduate but i dont know whether my group are allow because it seems they doesn't want fresh grads. its only 3 years of experience are allowed. well i hope i get to work there :D
Being in Semester 3 is not easy though. i've gotta sacrifice 2 days to stay back and do procedure. i can meet my family on Thursday but now, plan changed. Saturday only get to meet them. Being a nurse is not easy. Gotta sacrifice alot.

there's a patient who talk about Nurses and she said ' I'm on a LRT and i saw an *** nurse . i asked her why did she wanna take nursing in *** since it's so expensive compared to other private college. and she replied ' because i wanna HOOK UP with the *** doctors , that's why '

i was shocked when i heard that. most people thinks the same. all nurses are supposed to be with doctors because they match. i don't really agree because somehow, you need a Science and Art to be together. it just combine and it's not boring.

anyway, can't wait to meet up with my kawan kawan at Ipoh. hee.. miss them so much

p/s: Colin, don't be jealous yah :). i'll miss you :)

a moment of stress

2009-10-08T22:46:00.004+08:00

it's been awhile since i'm being in my Emo State.
seriously, i'm very scared that i couldn't achieve what i want to achieve for this semester.
i'm afraid i couldn't achieve my Procedures for this whole posting.
i'm making myself stress i know, but if i don't, i won't be working hard for it.
It's Semester 3. I'm Posted in ICU. I saw with my own eyes how Staff Nurses and Charged Nurses scolded those staff nurse from India. i've wanted to work in ICU because that's the best place to expand knowledge and to be competent+independent. i don't want to be a routine nurse who do routine work in ward. i'll feel bored. seriously.
I'm going to have my Annual Leave for 1 week plus. definitely i'll be at Ipoh. I've gotta do so many things in Ipoh. i've gotta learn to drive back again because i will need to drive at KL here one day. i've gotta change to a new IC. I've gotta study because when i go back, another 2 weeks will be my Exam..
I think i've made a mistake. i've promised my Mentor that i'll get Top 3 this time for my Semester 3. *smack head*
I really don't know who to tell too. i have a lovely family and boyfriend. They do have stress for themselves. I don't wanna add their stress because they look high upon me. hmmph.
I think i'm acting like that because i have a very bad day today. yesterday i came back from work at 11pm and i'm SO SO SO exhausted and tired. I woke up 5.30am and definitely brains couldn't function and my bad day starts. I Couldn't do my Procedure and answer question properly so, i got sound and all. Hmmph.
Hope it'll be a better day tomorrow :)

withdrawal treatment

2009-10-05T18:06:00.003+08:00

Two days back, ICU has only 1 patient. and so we are quite free though and i start to read articles and some reading materials there. There's this article that caught my eyes . The topic is Withdrawal Treatment

Reference : January 18, 2001, Volume 97, No.3 Nursing Times.

so what's Withdrawal Treatment?
It's normally happen in ICU where patients do not have any hope on recovery and not to prolong his suffering. They die earlier than if treatment continue. Its a plan of 1 senior staff nurse and 2 clinicians ( 1 consultant anesthetist and 1 consultant physician/ surgeon) and its up to the family members to decide. ICU staffs do not want patient to die suffering but to give them a peaceful dying.
Consent must be taken from a competent adult which the patient rely on. If not, any relative are not allowed to do it.

Respiratory , Cardio and Renal are the most important system in our body. So, If the patient is highly dependent on one of it, and the treatment withheld and stop, it will lead to death immediately.

so what happen during withdrawal treatment and what the staff do?
every treatment and medication will be decreased.
however, we nurses will still give him a peaceful dying by giving as much nursing care as possible.

well, i asked about it to Colin. and he actually silent for a few minutes. and i was like, what's going on. and he said all these is just against the God because they make decision whether to continue one's life or not.

all these while, i never think of God's will , power and all. what i know its just patient.

oh gosh, i feel bad. i really dont know what to say :S

Conversation of the day

2009-10-04T22:55:00.002+08:00

Me and Colin at Yuen Restaurant. so we decided to get Ice-Cream as i Love Love Ice-cream

Then ,

Jocelyn : eh bee, what's your favourite flavour ar?
Colin : oh. they dont provide here. i love peppermint
Jocelyn : Huh? ok. i go and take

came back with my rasberry + vanilla icecream

Colin : eh? why no vanilla meh? say got vanilla ?
Jocelyn : :( how i know. that time got. ..... EH. oh that time is sweet corn
Colin : *showing LC face* and walk off to take ice cream

came back with Yam ice-cream

Jocelyn : Eh bee, why u like Funny funny colours ice-cream one?
Colin : what so funny? Yam is in Purple colour what. the original Colour of the Yam is Purple also what. what so funny? then the Yam is in Green colour isit?
Jocelyn : HAHAHAHAHA *couldnt stop and couldnt breath because too full* nooo.. i mean why u like peppermint, and yam flavour. to me is Vanilla,Chocolate and Strawberry only.
Colin : aiyor. *smack head*

ICU posting

2009-09-29T16:12:00.002+08:00

Today, i've only found out the importance of posting in ICU. because since sunday, i felt that posting in ICU really really wasting my time because i learned nothing there.

well, you might think ' wow, ICU , must be very critical and all ' . its true. but i just don't find it worthy to post there. However, today, my Charged Nurse talked to me and taught me alot of things. and the most important thing is that, she taught me on how not to be a robotic nurse.

honestly, i find that fresh graduated nurses now are just robotic. they just follow orders from the doctors and could not make their own decision for their patient's safety. As a staff nurse, decision making is just so important. But i found it weird because if you don't follow their orders, they will think you against them and all. It's not against, it's just for the own patient's safety.

I observed how staff nurses handle their own patient from head to toe. knowing every inch of their problems. Being a Nurse is not easy anyway. i've already know where i wanna work after I graduate

preferably:

High Dependency Unit
Intensive Care Unit
Critical Care Unit

well, it's just temporary decision. i'm gonna further my studies to become a tutor :)

since i came back from Ipoh, i've realised that i did not back up alot of things.
so tomorrow will be my OFF DAY!!!!! heee. so what am i gonna do in the morning onwards

sweep and mop the floor
clean the toilet
clean my closet
CLEAN MY TABLE. ohh. its such a mess. cannot stand. ahh
update my reflective journal ( for my posting on what i've learned)
study and gain MORE MORE MORE knowledge so that i'll be functioning in ICU on Thursday onwards :D

The Ugly Truth

2009-09-24T00:23:00.002+08:00

Synopsis: The battle of the sexes heats up in Columbia Pictures' comedy The Ugly Truth. Abby Richter (Katherine Heigl) is a romantically challenged morning show producer whose search for Mr. Perfect has left her hopelessly single. She's in for a rude awakening when her bosses team her with Mike Chadway (Gerard Butler), a hardcore TV personality who promises to spill the ugly truth on what makes men and women tick. --© Sony Pictures

whee~ i'm gonna watch this movie with Colin :D:D.

i asked everyone and they said the movie is Good :) so i'm looking forward to it :D

Orphan

2009-09-21T11:53:00.003+08:00

yesterday, i watched Orphan with Colin.

i knew the movie is a horror movie and i'll be screaming but i really want to watch so i asked him to buy tickets

as usual i was excited when i see popcorns because i love them :D

i didnt know i actually sat in the cinema for 2 hours plus because the movie is AWESOME.

Esther is good in acting

and i was just thinking if my child is like that, i would have just killed myself.

maybe because she's an adult so it's different.

to those who did not watch this movie, you should go and watch because Orphan is just WOW

and, i'm afraid i'm gonna love football and Manchester United

i see how those die hard fans shouted when ManU won. i mean united( that's what real fans called them)

i was happy at that time because yesterday ManU against Manchester City . it was 4-3 . the last goal was striked by Owen(oh he's hot :) )

bruce lee

2009-09-17T17:45:00.002+08:00

He's the legend. He's the man :D. i love him.

okayy now whatt... He had hypersensitivity towards a substance in Equagesic which is a pain killer for his headache.
The rumors ranged from Lee being killed by Hong Kong triads (gangsters) because he refused to pay them protection money - —something that was common for Chinese movie stars to do at that time —to his being killed by an angry martial artist's dim mak (death touch) strike. Some people claimed Lee was cursed—he had just bought a house in Hong Kong that was supposed to be haunted—or that he had died while mking love to actress Betty Tingpei, or that he had angered the Chinese martial arts community by teaching foreigners, and that he had been killed in a challenge match.

hey i just don't understand why all superstars died because they are overdosed and because of drugs? worst. rumours said they are being killed and all. so were they actually got killed or overdosage of drugs? hmmph.

Reference : http://www.allbrucelee.com/article/mystery_of_bruce_lee.htm

Marilyn Monroe

2009-09-17T00:54:00.001+08:00

She is Marilyn Monroe. Another famous star. I was so curious about her because i thought she is a born-porn-star.However, after i've read her biography, she struggle and work hard alot to succeed in her career. Angel and Stephanie was talking about how Marilyn Monroe die. Angel said she was overdosed by barbiturates drugs (Nembutal) which the source stated. and Stephanie said that Marilyn was killed by President John Kennedy because he was too jealous it seems. so how did Marilyn died actually?

well.

On August 4th 1962 the world learned of Marilyn Monroe’s death. She was discovered by her housekeeper in her bedroom, nude and facedown, on her bed. She died from an overdose of Nembutal and chloral hydrate and her death was ruled a suicide. Whether these substances were self-administered or not, still to this day, are one of debate.

Background

Marilyn Monroe was an all-American success story. She rose from the ranks of orphan to onscreen sex idol. She was married to a sports legend, a literary giant, and had affairs with both John and Bobby Kennedy. She had everything, yet according to her friends, was scared for her life. Her fear was well founded.

It’s a matter of record that her house was bugged and that she was being watched. She was privy to many state secrets, mainly from Bobby Kennedy’s indiscreet pillow talk. She kept a diary of their conversations and had shown this to some close friends. Although the book mysteriously vanished, a close friend of Marilyn’s, Robert Slatzer was able to recall some of her entries. One entry, the intended assassination of Fidel Castro, was known by this individual, prior to it becoming public knowledge during a 1970’s Senate hearing. Marilyn, on many an occasion, had threatened to go public with the knowledge that she had of state matters, but never did.

On the night of her death, she bade her housekeeper good night and took a telephone with a long cord into her bedroom, closing the door behind her, never opening it again.

Murder or Suicide

Many interesting, non-explained phenomena surround Marilyn’s death and are too many to list. Below, however, are some of the most intriguing points to ponder. You can draw your own conclusions.

There was no suicide note ever recovered.
How could Marilyn swallow Nembutal tablets when no water glass was found on her nightstand and the plumbing system in the adjacent bathroom was turned off?
Why did it take four hours after the discovery of her death to inform police and why are there so many discrepancies as to what happened during that time by so many people?
Her autopsy results showed no trace or residue of any tablet in her stomach or small intestines. Also toxicology studies on these organs were never done.
She had a fresh bruise on her back that couldn’t be ruled out as an act of violence.
The autopsy showed a purple discoloration of the large intestine, suggesting that drugs may have been introduced here rather than being swallowed. This discoloration, as noted by one of the medical examiners present, was inconsistent and non-characteristic of oral barbiturate overdose death.
Peter Lawford, the Kennedy’s brother-in-law stated, "Marilyn took her last big enema".
Marilyn’s psychiatrist, in response to a reporter’s question concerning her death stated, " I can’t explain myself or defend myself without revealing things that I don’t want to reveal…. because I can’t tell the whole story. Listen.... talk to Bobby Kennedy."

Today the mystery surrounding her death prevails. The sealing of her file by the government, the destruction and loss of the many records during that time and the death of many of the people involved, leave us with conspiracy theories and innuendos only. Unless a lost piece of evidence or concrete proof surfaces, conjecture is all that we have.

References

-Roger Wilkes. The Mammoth Book of unsolved Crimes. Carroll and Graf Publishers, 2007

- http://modern-us-history.suite101.com/article.cfm/the_death_of_marilyn_monroe

i Couldn't conclude myself whether Marilyn was overdosed or being killed because there are some articles showed the autopsy report there are high volume of toxic which is digested. and another articles stating there were no drugs found in her stomach or liver. so i don't know which is true and not. so, God knows :) R.I.P Marilyn Monroe :)

betty boop

2009-09-17T00:06:00.003+08:00

She's Betty Boop. The reason i blog about her and upload this picture because when i was in my Nurse Uniform, my staff would call me Betty instead of my name because they thought i do look like her. but do i look like like her? i don't know.

i'll introduce her to whoever who doesn't know her.
Betty Boop is an animated cartoon character created by animator Grim Natwick, appearing in the Talkartoon and Betty Boop series of films produced by Fleischer Studios and released by Paramount Pictures. With her overt sexual appeal, Betty was a hit with filmgoers, and despite having been toned down in the mid-1930s, she remains popular today. She has been featured in two different comic strips, one in the 1930s and another in the 1980s.

okay. overt sexual appeal. i do not have that. i have a normal student appeal :)

Betty is a sex symbol in the cartoon world. her clothes are all sexy, and she's sexy in a way with her big round face and eyes, small lips and curly hair.
there's a video on her which has banned because of her 'pornography' acting. many adults do like her at that time. even now, i believe there are people who love her.

i got this from Wikipedia.

i don't know it is a good thing i look like Betty or not. haha. but i do love her after i saw her short series. she' so cute and her voice is so lovely .

flora and jocelyn

2009-09-13T18:40:00.004+08:00

we were walking back from old town and we saw two guys standing at the side of the car. talking. smoking

flora : aiyor. the guy smoke. i hate people who smoke
jocelyn: what if your boyfriend smoke?
flora : don't worry, i won't have any boyfriend who smoke
jocelyn: love is blind. you'll never know
flora : i don't care mann.. i'll never have a boyfriend who smoke
jocelyn: what if he change for you? he dont smoke?
flora : oh. oklar like that
jocelyn : what if he smoke but then he only do it when you're not around ?
flora : SOMEMORE I dont want. means he cheat me . but got smell one mah
jocelyn : he told you he smoke but he didn't do it in front of you.
flora : * speechless * AIYAR. i hate smoker laaaaa!!!

:P haha. i'm waiting till she has a boyfriend and i gonna screen him through till then :D oh gosh. tomorrow is test. cant wait till it ends on wednesday :D but time passed very fast. so it's okay .

oprah's kick out party

2009-09-12T13:45:00.002+08:00

My sister asked me to watch this video. Me and my roommates watched it while we are preparing for class. we were so touched when we watched it. i almost tear when i watch it. just imagine thousands of fans danced together the same way. wow..

Monthly test is next week. Today is Saturday and its weekend. ended class 1/2 hour late today. sigh.

got to study. after my test, gonna blog more about what the wars as i've promised myself :)

Casanova

2009-09-09T13:25:00.004+08:00

Although best known for his prowess in seduction for more than two hundred years since his death, Casanova was also recognized by his contemporaries as an extraordinary person, a man of far-ranging intellect and curiosity. Casanova was one of the foremost chroniclers of his age. He was a true adventurer, traveling across Europe from end-to-end in search of fortune, seeking out the most prominent people of his time to help his cause. He was a man of contradictory traits—generous and mean, honest and deceptive, fawning and aloof, skeptical and gullible, superstitious and rational. He was a servant of the establishment and equally decadent as his times, but also a participant in secret societies and a seeker of answers beyond the conventional. He was religious, a devout Catholic, and believed in prayer: “Despair kills; prayer dissipates it; and after praying man trusts and acts.” But he also believed in free will and reason and clearly did not subscribe to the notion that pleasure-seeking would keep him from heaven, if heaven did indeed exist.^[112]

He was, by vocation and avocation, a lawyer, clergyman, military officer, violinist, con man, pimp, gourmand, dancer, businessman, diplomat, spy, politician, mathematician, social philosopher, cabalist, playwright, and writer. He wrote over twenty works, including plays and essays, and many letters. His novel Icosameron is an early work of science fiction.^[113]

Born of actors, he had a passion for the theater and for an improvised, theatrical life. But with all his talents, he frequently succumbed to the quest for pleasure and sex, often avoiding sustained work and established plans, and got himself into trouble when prudent action would have served him better. His true occupation was living largely on his quick wits, steely nerves, luck, social charm, and the money given to him in gratitude and by trickery.^[114]

Prince Charles de Ligne, who understood Casanova well, and who knew most of the prominent individuals of the age, thought Casanova the most interesting man he had ever met: “there is nothing in the world of which he is not capable.” Rounding out the portrait, the Prince also stated:

The only things about which he knows nothing are those which he believes himself to be expert: the rules of the dance, the French language, good taste, the way of the world, savoir vivre. It is only his comedies which are not funny, only his philosophical works which lack philosophy—all the rest are filled with it; there is always something weighty, new, piquant, profound. He is a well of knowledge, but he quotes Homer and Horace ad nauseam. His wit and his sallies are like Attic salt. He is sensitive and generous, but displease him in the slightest and he is unpleasant, vindictive, and detestable. He believes in nothing except what is most incredible, being superstitious about everything. He loves and lusts after everything. ... He is proud because he is nothing. ... Never tell him you have heard the story he is going to tell you. ... Never omit to greet him in passing, for the merest trifle will make him your enemy.^[115]

source :http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Giacomo_Casanova

cupid and psyche

2009-09-09T13:02:00.004+08:00

Envious and jealous of the beauty of a mortal girl named Psyche, Venus asks her son Cupid (known to the Greeks as Eros) to use his golden arrows while Psyche sleeps, so that when she awakes, Venus (Aphrodite to the Greeks) would have already placed a vile creature for her to fall in love with. Cupid finally agrees to her commands after a long (and losing) debate. As he flies to Psyche's room at night, he turns himself invisible so no one can see him fly in through her window. He takes pity on her, for she was born too beautiful for her own safety. As he slowly approaches, careful not to make a sound, he readies one of his golden arrows. He leans over Psyche while she is asleep and before he can scratch her shoulder with the arrow, she awakens, startling him, for she looks right into his eyes, despite his invisibility. This causes him to scratch himself with his arrow, falling deeply in love with her. He cannot continue his mission, for every passing second he finds it more appalling, He reports back to Venus shortly later and this enrages her. Venus places a curse on Psyche that keeps her from meeting a suitable husband, or any husband at that. As she does this, it upsets Cupid greatly, and he decides that as long as the curse stays on Psyche, he will no longer shoot arrows, which will cause Venus' temple to fall.

After months of no one — man or animal — falling in love, marrying, or mating, the Earth starts to grow old, which causes concern to Venus, for nobody praises her for Cupid's actions. Finally, she agrees to listen to Cupid's demands, according him one thing to have his own way. Cupid desires Psyche. Venus, upset, agrees to his demands only if he begins work immediately. He accepts the offer and takes off, shooting his golden arrows as fast as he can, restoring everything to the way it should be. People again fall in love and marry, animals far and wide mate, and the Earth begins to look young once more.

When all continue to admire and praise Psyche's beauty, but none desire her as a wife, Psyche's parents consult an oracle, which tells them to leave Psyche on the nearest mountain, for her beauty is so great that she is not meant for (mortal) man. Terrified, they have no choice but to follow the oracle's instructions. But then Zephyrus, the west wind, carries Psyche away, to a fair valley and a magnificent palace where she is attended by invisible servants until nightfall, and in the darkness of night the promised bridegroom arrives and the marriage is consummated. Cupid visits her every night to sleep with her, but demands that she never light any lamps, since he does not want her to know who he is until the time is right.

Cupid allows Zephyrus to take Psyche back to her sisters and bring all three down to the palace during the day, but warns that Psyche should not listen to any argument that she should try to discover his true form. The two jealous sisters tell Psyche, then pregnant with Cupid's child, that rumor is that she had married a great and terrible serpent who would devour her and her unborn child when the time came for it to be fed. They urge Psyche to conceal a knife and oil lamp in the bedchamber, to wait till her husband is asleep, and then to light the lamp and slay him at once if it is as they said. Psyche sadly follows their advice. In the light of the lamp Psyche recognizes the fair form on the bed as the god Cupid himself. However, she accidentally pricks herself with one of his arrows, and is consumed with desire for her husband. She begins to kiss him, but as she does, a drop of oil falls from her lamp onto Cupid's shoulder and wakes him. He flies away, and she falls from the window to the ground, sick at heart.

Psyche then finds herself in the city where one of her jealous elder sisters live. She tells her what had happened, then tricks her sister into believing that Cupid has chosen her as a wife on the mountaintop. Psyche later meets her other sister and deceives her likewise. Each sister goes to the top of the peak and jumps down eagerly, but Zephyrus does not bear them and they fall to their deaths at the base of the mountain.

Psyche searches far and wide for her lover, finally stumbling into a temple where everything is in slovenly disarray. As Psyche is sorting and clearing the mess, Ceres appears, but refuses any help beyond advising Psyche that she must call directly on Venus, who caused all the problems in the first place. Psyche next calls on Juno in her temple, but Juno gives her the same advice. So Psyche finds a temple to Venus and enters it. Venus then orders Psyche to separate all the grains in a large basket of mixed kinds before nightfall. An ant takes pity on Psyche, and with its ant companions, separates the grains for her.

enus is outraged at her success and tells her to go to a field where golden sheep graze and to retrieve some golden wool. A river-god tells Psyche that the sheep are vicious and strong and will kill her, but if she waits until noontime, the sheep will go to the shade on the other side of the field and sleep; she can then pick the wool that sticks to the branches and bark of the trees. Venus next asks for water flowing from a cleft that is impossible for a mortal to attain and is also guarded by great serpents. This time an eagle performs the task for Psyche.

Venus, furious at Psyche's survival, claims that the stress of caring for her son, made depressed and ill as a result of Psyche's lack of faith, has caused her to lose some of her beauty. Psyche is to go to the Underworld and ask the queen of the Underworld, Proserpina (Persephone to the Greeks), to place a bit of her beauty in a box that Venus had given to Psyche. Psyche decides that the quickest way to the Underworld is to throw herself off some high place and die, and so she climbs to the top of a tower. But the tower itself speaks to Psyche and tells her the route that will allow her to enter the Underworld alive and return again, as well as telling her how to get past Cerberus (by giving the three-headed dog a small cake); how to avoid other dangers on the way there and back; and most importantly, to eat nothing but coarse bread in the underworld, as eating anything else would trap her there forever. Psyche follows the orders precisely, rejecting all but bread while beneath the Earth.

However, once Psyche has left the Underworld, she decides to open the box and take a little bit of the beauty for herself. Inside, she can see no beauty; instead an infernal sleep arises from the box and overcomes her. Cupid (Eros), who had forgiven Psyche, flies to her, wipes the sleep from her face, puts it back in the box, and sends her back on her way. Then Cupid flies to Mount Olympus and begs Jupiter (Zeus) to aid them. Jupiter calls a full and formal council of the gods and declares that it is his will that Cupid marry Psyche. Jupiter then has Psyche fetched to Mount Olympus, and gives her a drink made from ambrosia, granting her immortality. Begrudgingly, Venus and Psyche forgive each other.

Psyche and Cupid had a daughter, called Voluptas or Delight, the goddess of "sensual pleasures", whose Latin name means "pleasure" or "bliss".

i would want my daughter to name as Voluptas :D it was so random that i was talking about Cupid with my friend. and i'm so interested in all this so i decided to blog it :D

:D

2009-09-06T16:08:00.002+08:00

pong, jocelyn and ivan

:)

i went Mid Valley on the saturday to meet up with ivan ( my library long lost friend)

he's tall as usual and i'm happy when he compliment me that i've grew.

watched final destination:D

and i got no one to turn to for me to squeeze or pinch because Ivan OMG OMG

and pong act cool. got no choice but turn to Pong. LOL.

happy happy :D

dear ivan and Pong, hope you do good in your internship. if got hot guys or girls must tell me k :) we shall meet again the next 6 months :)

sunway pyramid

2009-09-03T18:52:00.002+08:00

jocelyn and her ice cream .

fondue in Haagen Daz

so 2 days back i went Sunway Pyramid with kyenkuku, jiangmay , alicia and alicia bf(vince)

yay. i wore the same colour as kyenkuku (suke nyaaaa )

so we makan at Dragon-i or Canton-i ? i also don't know.

wanted to ice-skate but because everyone dont want so i have to save it for another time

then we makan at Haagen Daz for the fondue.

i'm loving it

i love u kawan kawan :D

2009-09-01T22:54:00.002+08:00

Jocelyn is currently addicted to Quando, Quando - Michael Buble.

i could not take out the earphone because i'm so addicted of it. i don't wanna stop it although i wanna sleep now

bad mouth

2009-09-01T10:13:00.003+08:00

i never want to say anything bad again. omg.

whatever comes out from my mouth gonna happen.

i wanted to cheat kyen that i'm gonna have detention class today because i'm lazy to go out. AND THEN.

when i went to class after toilet. we are told we are gonna have detention class at 4-6pm. oh gosh. what a mouth i have. i think i've asked someone when are they gonna break up and yeah. they have big problem among themselves after on.

i think i shouldn't say anything next time.

anyway it's SEPTEMBER. yay

hope everything will be fine this month onwards. no fight.no cry.no hurt.

love and peace will be with me :)

i asked some girls whether they would prefer if their partner pass away because of some disease or cheat and leave them behind?

and most answers were they prefer if the partner pass away.

i would have prefer that too. its not because i'm evil or what . it's just i would have prefer that at least i can tell to myself that my boyfriend actually love me before he die. rather knowing my boyfriend cheated on me and leave me behind.

if ever my future bf read this. he will be so sad. omg. haha :P

gonna meet kyenkuku, jiang may , alicia and her boyfriend later. excited. * pray to god that i won't be saying anything *

cant wait to meet ivan-boyfy this saturday. he's leaving soon to penang. i'm gonna miss him so so much

good night world

2009-08-27T21:52:00.002+08:00

its 10pm and i feel like sleeping actually

i'm very tired and exhausted. whole day busy. after class, assignments then practice. thought of taking a nap but end up waking up after 10 minutes because there's so much thing i did not do. example, wash clothes , study. what to do tomorrow. assignments.

gotta finish everything before i go home this saturday.

worst. the booster for today : everyone have to pass Test 1 if wanna go back early for raya holiday.

don't know what to say. need to sleep. cannot stand anymore. my eyes are closing. Good Night World :)

could not forgive

2009-08-26T13:00:00.002+08:00

i never felt this way before but till today i really could not forgive neither forget what had happen to me.

the moment that i need to help, i don't feel the sincerity anymore. i felt that i am forced and if i don't help, i'll be the one who is blamed.

you kept quiet and i also keep quiet because i do not want to talk. sometimes i felt like running away.

you can say i'm not a best friend of yours because best friends forgive and forget. but i couldn't.
yes, i am very easy to forgive someone. in a minute i will just forgive. but i couldnt this time. i couldn't.

7.06 am

2009-08-25T06:34:00.002+08:00

it's 7.06 am. another 1/2 an hour, i'll be going to class. i wanted to blog about what had happen yesterday but i'm just so stoned.

i didn't know my best friend's boyfriend actually passed away because of leukemia last year?

now only i know why is she so sad for the past 1 year?

some don't even know how to appreciate and what they only know is fight and quarrel? *sounds like talking about me*.. :P.

but what did i do , is right. well. he's one of a jerk? ah. not going to mention about this further. he have his life and i have mine :). so whatever :)

thought of writing more, but i've gtg. breakfast and class :)

yay, boyfy gonna come next weekend. we'll gonna meet after so long. whee :D

KLCC

2009-08-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

today i went to KLCC with Angel.

it was a random plan because i thought of needed some fresh air and calm myself down.

things went smoothly. i get to watch my movie 'Ghost of Girlfriends Past'

i learned alot when i watch that movie.

At Last angel got to buy her skinny jeans from Diesel. if not she will keep on complaining of no Jeans and all..

oh yes, i wanted to buy a book ' The Rape of Nanking' by Iris Chang. but i thought if anyone who has this book can lend me to read. i saw the pictures of how the Chinese got tortured by Japanese made me wanna cry. i don't know why. hmmph, praying hard if someone will lend me :D. i'll be appreciate his/her kindness :)

i came back. As Usual, the line is SO BAD. i couldnt take it. sigh.

Angel came in to my room and asked me why i didn't talk to her.

again, she cried like nobody's business. because she thought i still hate her. i don't know if she understand me well or not because i really need sometime to cool down when something happen. she made me even more frustrated

now i understand why he was so annoyed when i was like that. crying non-stop. its just the person need sometime to cool down. well, what's the point of mentioning it back again. it's the past. at least, i've learned my mistake. i wouldn't do that anymore because i understand how it feels. well, sometimes i just realised that he made me learned so so much. i really thanked him for that.

Thank god, i still have mummy,kelvin and kyenkuku. warren, ivan and kahwai not to be forgotten. be there for me when all these shits happen

klcc

2009-08-23T21:34:00.001+08:00

delete

2009-08-22T19:52:00.003+08:00

just read january and february post that i've blogged.

its only this 2 month i read. i don't need to read the subsequent months

the subsequent months were horrible. i was so emo for those months.

but i cant help it. nothing could change. many things had happen the earlier year.

i hope it will be better for me this half year

today i called Henry ( my lovely cousin ) and i had a great conversation with him :).

i miss him and neven so much.

well. i guess i gotta delete post that is negative and names that are not supposed to be on my blog anymore.

i gotta delete those names in my blog,facebook and phone. gotta delete them from my life :)

i do not want to remember them anymore.

anger and disappointment

2009-08-22T17:28:00.002+08:00

i thought i'll be better after a good nap of 3 hours. but the disappointment and anger is still there
and my heart aches alot.

i wanted to be a good friend of course but i don't know why i got scolded alone by my tutor.

i don't know if you really forgot what had happen yesterday? me, angel and flora sent you to the hospital and we took turned in the hospital. you cried when i asked you to call your mom. you got your MC and we wanted you to sleep. you changed your own clothes and prepare your own dinner without asking your roommate and our help.

today, you attended class, i kept quiet when u attend class. i was in my disappointment of wanting you to rest. after class, you asked us whether we wanna take our lunch or not, we say no because we're going out.

i went up to the room and came out for lunch. i don't see you sandals when i passed by. i thought you r down at the cafeteria taking your lunch with the help of your roommate

i went down. i saw your roommate. i ask her where are you? she asked me back because she didnt know where are you. after my lunch, angel ran down and told me Tutor wants to see me

i ran up with angel and saw another tutor. well, she said that all her good friends left her. that time i knew what is going on

i went in to the tutor's office. i saw her. she started to asked me . i started to tell everything

and she said we left you behind. we didn't take care of you.

she asked me to sort it out the problem. i don't know how. i really don't know how.

whatever we have planned, has already spoiled.

luckily angel is with you.

i thought i'll be better, but i hurt more than you.

dislocation

2009-08-21T19:39:00.004+08:00

chi hwa on her arm sling in A&E

i didn't want to play badminton today actually because i'm SO SO SO lazy and sleepy.

however they are so excited about it, so i join in the fun.

okay. when we went down, we saw seniors playing, we played after they left.

it was only me, chi hwa, angel and flora.

angel and flora paired up while me and chi hwa paired. we played double. she's good in smashing and i'm good at hitting the ball high and far ( i know self praise is no praise :) )

so, i don't know what's wrong with her also. kiasu day for her i guess.

10 minutes later, when she smashed, she hit the shuttlecock REAL REALL REALLL hard. she turned 360 degree and sat on the floor. she complained ' eh, my hand very pain la. cannot move'

here's our conversation

jocelyn: oi, u ok anot? can move mou?
angel : aiyar nothing one lar. sprain only.
jocelyn: eh, no lar. see the arms. so funny looking one? seeeeeee...
angel : aiyar. where got? nothing la
jocelyn: nvm, see got any tutor come we tell her. u rest

(Ms. Yong walking in - heading to the entrance. work end)

jocelyn: Ms.Yong, i think my friend dislocated her hand :S

Ms.Yong walk towards her seriously

Ms.Yong : yah, i think you dislocated your shoulder, (instruct us- send her to the A&E now)
jocelyn,angel,flora : WHAT!! OH MY GODD!

we quickly plan what to do. i ran up to the tutor office ( thank god Ms.Katherine is there)
flora ran down and take the key to get bandage from the practical room and angel ran up to chi hwa's room take her medication attention book

i told Ms.Kat, she walked down to the hall and see chi hwa and start to bandage her.
we sent her to A&E.

me, flora and angel took turn to the hospital to accompany her.

well, she's on 3 dangerous drug ( sedation and pain killer)

went X-ray for 2 times.

her dislocated shoulder on the x-ray was out and front

and she have to be on the arm sling for 3 weeks. couldn't take bath, so we decided to take turn to help her.

well, wanted to watch movie with her tomorrow, but her hand like that, so , i decided not to go and stay back to accompany her and help her if she needs anything because tomorrow is a weekend, all her room mates will be going back home. i'm not going back, so me,angel and flora gonna take care of her

well, i hope u gonna get well soon chi hwa

we purposely make u laugh but actually we are worried of you.

take care :)

for the 3rd time i saw her crying before calling her mother because she didn't wanna tell her mother but she have no choice. she have to be on the arm sling for 3 weeks and her mother is coming next week. how to hide right? and she is not allowed to remove even for 2 days.

her mother is worry about her.

chi hwa, you shouldn't be so stubborn because there's alot of people who is concern about you. see, Ms. Katherine even so concern :). learn to tell other people. there's only 1 person who said you r dependent. yah so what? you're a girl, you have the right :)

random harmless panda

2009-08-20T18:10:00.004+08:00

jocelyn is shaving Aneesha Kaur Gill's leg :)

that's diana climbing on my bed to see hot guys at flora's phone

today i just realised how RANDOM am i.

well. i think i played the whole day in class today. haha

and i'm so random.

jocelyn walk towards to Angel

jocelyn: Lao gong
Angel : what?
jocelyn : tonight, 1000 bucks . very cheap, want anot jek? ( in mandarin)
Angel : HAHAHA

i've always speak Mandarin with english slang to them and they will laugh at me. haha.
and most man say i looks like a china girl . so i decided to act like a china girl

next

premila : eh siew yeng, come come
jocelyn : yess??
premila : eh, i heard you got an indian boyfriend la . really ar?
( all indian girls turn and look at me )
jocelyn: huh? who tell u
i turn around and tell the chinese friend ' eh, they say i got indian boyfriend la'
premila : AIYOR.. really anot ?
jocelyn: HAHA. i do have a indian boyfriend? how come i don't know?
premila : ARGHH. u r the one who has a boyfriend right? why ask me?
jocelyn: HAHAH. no laarrr.. i'm single
angel : SHE IS SINGLE LAA.. NO BOYFRIEND.

:D

jocelyn : eh punitha, do i look like a harmless panda or a harmful panda?
punitha : erm, both
jocelyn: HUH WHAT? people say i'm a harmless panda
punitha : hehehe

My National Service said i'm a harmless panda and i look like one? isit true? maybe huh. so fair with eye bags and black. HAHAH. :P

penectomy

2009-08-19T12:46:00.003+08:00

haha. penectomy - removal of penis

there's a lecture on Consent and when a wife have to remove something that affect the images ( exp : removal of breast, uterus, ovary ) it has to be signed by husband and wife because if the husband is not acknowledge about it, the husband may leave the wife. hmmph.

so my friends asked what if the husband were to do surgery

friend: Ms. Katherine, what about the husband have to do surgery? the wife also have to sign the consent?
Ms. Katherine : well, of course. would you want a husband who undergo Penectomy or Vasectomy
(one of the structure is tied to prevent sperms from ejaculate out).
all : LOL.

so it seems from her, the private part - is a ego. and if we girls hit 'them' they will be physically,mentally and emotionally hurt.

during lunch break, angel was SO SO SO ANGRY and she said she wants to hit 'his'.
i was like. hmmph. okayy..

anyway, later i'm gonna be shaved by my friends as a practice. its a procedure. was thinking which part of my body should be shaved. HAHA..

acid

2009-08-18T16:11:00.002+08:00

today is an acid day. 1st my tutor talked about her olden days at her hometown where there's old town and new town. villagers are not allowed to pass through from old town to new town or vice versa. the outcome is that they will be thrown acid at their face by gangsters.

i thought our generations only have all this gangsterism thingy. see see last time they are more violent then us. well, i'm very interested in knowing what happen in the olden days.

how they actually survive without tv,phone,laptop, washing machine. but its a good thing, they are actually very independent. not like me now, LOL.

and the 2nd story is that i read online news just now. and there's this lady in her 20's throw acid at her husband because her husband has another gf outside?

hmmph. i don't know what's wrong with the world nowadays. i guess she's living in denial that's why. someone said i'm living in denial and i can't accept the fact and truth because truth hurts.
if i were that lady, i wouldn't do such stupid thing. she's making herself to be in deep trouble.
anyway, different people has different character :P

2009-08-17T16:55:00.007+08:00

i love this accessory the most. my baby mp3 is connected with this eggie speaker. my ear won't hurt more now :D

some cleaning kit :P

the fannie to fan my baby lappie

my baby mousie for my baby lappie

figuring it out how to lock my baby lappie. hahah.

baby lappie . facebooking :P

yeah. so this is my baby lappie and its 6 accessories. another 2 is the baggie and keyboard protector.

hee. love my sister alot alot :D.

random

2009-08-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

blahhhh

being random here.

i don't understand why girls are good in jealousy.

they got jealous when i have my new laptop. ahh. whatever. can't be bothered.

somehow, i should have throw that thing to the Kinta River.its just wasting my time to make it

well. i'm being honest here.

a phrase from Jovial Personal Message

' i hope you'll get raped by the dicepticons, the first will be scorponok' :)

a new laptop

2009-08-15T20:15:00.002+08:00

whee.. i got a new laptop by my sister,Jovial Chai.

Jovial : why u so bad mood one?
me : no lar. just woke up
Jovial : nah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY :) (giving me a box )
me : huh? what is that ? omg, a laptop ? *SCREAM FOR 1 MINUTE * ( it seems from my sister and eujin)
jovial and eujin shake their head
Jocelyn : omg. thank you jie :D
Jovial : u better be good if not i take back the laptop
Jocelyn : hee. i will

and they took me to some restaurant. i spend them :D . happy happy :D

i didn't know i'll get a laptop due to financial problems. somemore, i got bombarded by her because i wanted a laptop. anyway, i love her so much :)

later on, she told me that she don't want me to feel of having no laptop for assignments. it's real bad and i kept on using Chi Hwa or Flora's laptop. that's real bad. eventhough they don't mind but i feel not nice also.. anyway, i thanked them for being so understand :)

night, we went for dinner and club at Poppy :). well, thought i'll meet my friends. i see none but my senior. LOL.

had a very great fun :).. slept at 5+ and woke up at 10am. *yawn*

gotta clean the house for my sister. it's really a mess. :S

1st week of lecture

2009-08-14T18:21:00.002+08:00

okayyyy... 1st week of lectures. i think in just a week, 15 assignments has already given to us.

my brain couldn't accept alot of things today so afternoon lecture for today is horrifying. i kept looking at the clock. i stayed back for assignment and went to sleep.

when i woke up, i felt my brain is filled with 10L of water which made me felt so heavy. i'm feeling the same now.

yay. going to my sister's place tomorrow and partaaayyyyy..

today i have to sign my evaluation form at my ward by that CI. so she wrote a comment about me 'willing to learn from ward rounds. wander around freely at the ward. sister(matron) asked me to keep an eye on her' . yah. 1st bad evaluation from her. i know i didn't do anything wrong. so whatever :). expect for the worst to come which is facing my tutor.

we had this lesson that we have to present on how to give a proper nursing care to a patient if this patient is ...

so one of the answers is : teach and encourage patient to do passive exercise on the bed.

Ms. K : all this while i was just wondering what's passive exercise is.
classmate: moving the legs and hands for good circulation
Ms.K : okay. so what's active exercise on the bed ?
class : LOL.

for better answers, she said exercise based on Range Of Movement.

so whoever read this, please have a clear mind about it :)

and new word for a keh poh disease : keh pohlitis :)

toto

2009-08-12T18:16:00.002+08:00

today i'm very angry of my mother because she didn't get the toto number. jojo has this psychic that whatever number comes out from the mouth sure strike.

the conversation goes like that

jojo : jocelyn. buy your number la since new hp number. 8048 and 5228.
jocelyn: really anot ?
jojo : hHEHEE. no laa.

see see. sunday toto strike 5228 2nd place.

she told me today. i was like WHAT THE HELLLLLL!!!!!

if i bought, i would have the money to get what i want. hmmph.

i told my friend, they say i'm a 'lan tou poh' .

i don't agree with them because you might have the chance to strike ... too bad we don't have.

hmmph. it's okay. we'll try next time.

2nd day of class

2009-08-11T16:04:00.002+08:00

well, today is the 2nd day of class. and i felt the stress. LOL

1st day was not that bad because it was pre-test ( entrance test to semester 3)

well, i passed my pre-test. 1st day it was all about briefing and this week will be all presentations on what we've learned during semester 1. but i remember nothing about semester 1 subject

there's this tutor who is going to teach me about BLOOD( angel said looks like professor snape )

i believe i'm gonna score well in her paper because the way she gonna teach us will be different ( tomorrow onwards ) . even today, she did not teach but telling us her requirements, made me felt like : okay. this tutor is real different.

maybe because she is a senior tutor. so, the way how senior tutor portray herself is really different. i'm gonna like the subject although it gonna be taught in english and exams will be in Bahasa Malaysia.

actually i like lectures which is taught in english . maybe not the exams in malay.

but somehow i manage to cope with it because for my pre-test, i read the textbook which is in english and i answered in malay.

however, there's some of my classmates don't like it. maybe i would say, the majority of it. so, i should cope with it :) majority wins.

assignments are increasing day by day. homework are piling up like a mount everest.

i love semester 3. and i will struggle to get straight A's for my semester 3 ( pray hard :) )

i've been telling my friends to tell their mother about their problem because mother will help them and understand them very fast. and they actually thanked me for that

however, i did not do the same. i'll tell her about my study,hostel,friends. everything but not about him.

maybe because i have no choice, i need her help, i've told her. to my suprise, she actually volunteer to do another shocking + suprise thing for me.

it was INDEED SHOCKED when she told me because last time, she would have bombed me straight to my face(being sarcastic ;) )

angel and chihwa is enough shocked.

what is the shocking thing?

ask me personally if you want :)

on block

2009-08-09T19:41:00.003+08:00

G.I Joe is so so nice. Duke is SO SO SO SO SO hot and cute

but if were to compared with Transformer, i would prefer G.I Joe. maybe because it's more exciting. but other people prefer Transformer. heee... i love DUKe :)

sad morning to happy evening

2009-08-05T23:22:00.003+08:00

a result of chicken wings we fought for

alicia is so happy after snatchingg those chicken wings

the one in black is kyen and the side one in grey is alicia fighting for chicken wing. sorry it was blur. my hands were dirty

i hate my morning today because i was blamed that i did not do my work and sit at the counter chit chat with my staff. my staff were busy how can i talk to them?

she made me cried for the first time and i fought back with her in front of my juniors.

i don't understand why do problems came to me before i go back on block. rawr rawr rawr. tomorrow i'm in my morning shift. i don't know how to face her. i don't care if she give a bad report on me because i did nothing wrong.

we never like her. she love twisting stories. can't help it. this is a learning process for me. i'll prove her wrong and show her my capability next time if i'm posted in that ward

after work, i met up with KYEN.. yay.. taxi fare is expensive :'( gonna go out less perhaps( if i can :P )

6+ we met up with alicia and we went Sunway for dinner :D steamboat at YUEN restaurant. yummie yum..

people fight for the chicken wing ( but it's nice though) . heee...

and we lost our way to my hostel ( i'm road blind. wth )

and i called Sandek ( my savior :D ) i safely reached here :) thank you Sandek :)

conversation with kyenku

2009-08-04T12:00:00.002+08:00

yesterday kyenku is so emo

i was happy at that time and i talk to her stuffs.

i realised that being emo doesn't actually work?

to kyenku,

you've been my best friend since we were 10 and i see how much you've changed when u came to kl. you were more mature and u were like a mother to me actually. you are scary at times and you adviced us alot. but you see ? you've been changing so negatively. you act differently in front of us. and it heartache for me to see you changing like that because i understand how it feels when things doesn't go our way and it sounds annoyed all the time. but there's people who is worst then us. i dare not wanna be emo anymore because when i think back what my friend said to me, i've only realised i'm not the pitiest one. he can be so strong after all these years he had gone through. why not me? i didn't experience like how he did. i think i've told you yesterday.
i really wanna see my kyen a happy person. because i love your laughter. i miss hugging you.
i miss everything when i'm out with you. i just miss you. i love you kyen :)

monday-moanday

2009-08-03T10:54:00.002+08:00

i wanna see the doctor and the queue is so so so long

i wanted to take MC but its like so long queue and later i have to go work.

ah whatever isit.

Leffe

2009-08-02T14:46:00.004+08:00

Leffe Brune, 6.5% abv, . The beer抯 rich caramel flavour is complemented by a subtle taste of apple-like fruit, with hints of brown-sugar. Leffe Brune rounded, nutty mouthfeel is succeeded by a dryness in the finish. This dark brown beer is suited for any occasion, whether standing at the bar or sitting down with food

Leffe Blonde, at 6.6% abv, contains the second lowest alcohol content of the range. It has a rounded, smooth flavour, with a mildly spicy taste reminiscent of oranges. It has a slightly bitter aftertaste and a honey aroma. It is a gold-yellow, moderately carbonated beer with an excellent head and nutty texture.

I tasted both yesterday at Brussel's ( where neven chai working ). Jovial and PeiMan ordered this. it taste nice. but it taste like carlsberg to me at 1st but in the end, it taste good :D gonna try more at his work place :). Neven and Jovial were talking about Connor's Stout(i don't know if the spelling is correct) and KilKenny. i was like. hmmph. i don't know how KilKenny taste but Connor's stout taste funny.

Anyway, i've realised i couldn't talk to my sister when i'm sick. my pronounciation just go sengeted. example. MOS ( MOmass) Barack Obama ( BaRRAAck Obama) and yeah. i know nothing about Malaysia and the world. She came late yesterday because there's jam at Federal Highway and demonstration going on. i asked her back why demonstration? see. shows that i didn't keep up myself with the world. and i bought newspaper today ( i love sunday paper. i don't know why) and she asked me who's the secretary of the president. i know she's one of the ex - president wife. . something Clinton. and it's Hiliary Clinton ( Ms. Elaine Morais taught us )

so shy:(.

assignments has divided. and i'm going back ipoh this friday and coming back Pj on the Sunday morning. SO SO SO sickening. but i have no choice. it's my future. no pain no gain ( haha).

realistic

2009-07-31T19:05:00.002+08:00

i don't know if i'm having a good day or what. but i really need to thank to this patient's father for saying good about my CI.

i don't wanna blog about her because it's publicly opened. and people somehow will tell back and i'll get to into trouble. i've learned the lesson and never want to do it again.

the patient's father is so nice for saying good things to her and she was INDEED so HAPPY. and she actually taught me and signed my procedure . well. thanks to him again. i am now save and confirm i do not need to wear uniform when class starts. that's the best thing about it. :D .

jocelyn is having flu now and she is stoned. she needs to study for her upcoming pre-test before going in for semester 3 and assignments suddenly came up and have to be complete in 10 days time. 4 assignments. praying hard i would get things done before next friday because i wanna go back Ipoh.

pravind

2009-07-30T20:17:00.002+08:00

it's not him who make me cry always. it's pravind who make me cry everytime i talk to him.

i've known him for 5 years. but we lost contact for 4 years? because some personal issue between both of us. and if i wasn't childish that time and could think properly. my heart will be taken by him. HAHAH.. but it's already the past.

i've always thought i'm the pitiest one on earth. but when i talked to him. it's real different and i 'm wrong. truly wrong.

he adviced me. he don't mind if i cry. His patience towards me never less until today because he understands me and i'm very lucky that i actually get to talk to him. after for so long. he's the greatest friend i've ever met because he gone through the worst. and i didn't know he gone through shits but he didn't tell me because i was young at that time and i've grown up now.

well. i do hope the best for him and his girlfriend :)

whee

2009-07-30T15:21:00.003+08:00

the best sandwich :)

from left ( clockwise ) : peanut butter,tiramisu(jovial's), blueberry( i love the cream so much), coffee

hmmph. looks like 1 week i did not blog.

just came back from hometown. i mean few days actually.

now only have the time to sit down and start to blog.

went back ipoh and many things get into my brains after lecturing my little sister.

so i came back, my elder sister took me to Wonder Milk Cafe :D. oh gosh. i love the cuppacakes so so so much ( jie, please take me there again, pleasee )

nothing much happening actually.

i'm going back to class. and it's year 2 semester 3 ( omg, i'm older. LOL)

assignments are there again . haiyoyo..

oh yess.. i got my results already. actually when i saw my results, i ended up laughing although i drop abit.

i did well for Ms. Katherine's paper. and she pointed the 2 subjects.. i laughed again. i don't know what to say.

and she evaluate about me and i LAUGHED again. lol. i don't know what to say to her also.

but i told her 1 thing that i'll do much more better in semester 3 and hopefully be in the top 3 list :) *pray hard*

after reading chi hwa's blog. i only realised that she has become emo kid.. HAHAH.

i don't care if you go back la chi hwa, go back go back laaa... i also going back. i don't care. i don't know when i can go back after next week.
who cares about guys la.. you love him is enough. you know and i know is enough. he treat u bad because he doesn't know how to appreciate you. i believe there's a guy who will love you alot. maybe not now.. so don't be emo. be like me. so crazy. happily loving everyone. and u should know what's my plan already ;) be like me. don't be so closed up. i respect your traditional thinking but u should have a modern traditional thinking :D

oh yes. when i came back, i realised i NEED A CHANGE. my hair cut is the 1st step of everything. ATJ drugs is producing.

sorry i know this is late.

2009-07-17T16:06:00.005+08:00

my hun :)

jocelyn's restyle

that's how jovial carry her bebe. and that's my hot mum at the back

hmmph

i love him :)

the hairstylist. the married guy

bebe on the car. on way back from kl.

bebe on me.

cute little bebe

2009-07-10T12:18:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to Jocelyn :)

wanna say thank you to those who wished me :) i do love you all :)

conversation with leroy

2009-07-08T11:02:00.003+08:00

yesterday i had a conversation with leroy(my baby brother).

i never knew he is that mature although he's just 17 years old.

i've now realised that actually i'm weaker than before. much more weaker.

i closed myself even more now. i dare not wanna go beyond than what is in front of me.

i keep things hanging because i don't know how to solve it.

i just dont wanna get hurt. i do look strong to everyone but i'm the weakest of all.

i seriously don't know what to do. my responsibility is heavy. very heavy.

i need time to get back myself together and be more confident than before.

and the time is real short. i really need to get back myself before i go back for my Semester 3.

i don't know who to tell to. there's no one tell me that they will be there for me and support me all the way.

it's just. i don't know.

hee 4/7/2009 celebration

2009-07-07T14:54:00.006+08:00

wheee... i went back ipoh on a friday. and i thought it will be a normal celebration because there's not much people who came.

friday :
i went back at 4+ . my sister fetched. half way she slept at near the rest house because she is extreme tired and sleepy. and i don't know how to drive because i didnt practise. and there's people who fetch me for sure. hahaha.. so we reached home around 8pm. both of us are tired. but plan to go Tesco to get our groceries. end up, both of us slept. lol

saturday:

oh yes. this is the day. i went for lunch and i met up warren at his saloon. started at 2 plus and end at 6 . and this is my new hair :). compliment from alot of people. seriously i thanked warren for making over my hair. i'm sorry i didn't trust his skills at 1st but i have faith on him on the second time and this is my hair

my cousin came. warren and friends came.

jojo was happening. she almost cried because i brought roshan and sunny there. they lied to her they couldnt make it. lalala

jojo's half face. me and kelvin :). we are random... :)

we had ALOT ALOT ALOT of fun. my mum is so happy. we danced like no one business (of course we danced like no1 business. it's mum's ) .

centre of attention. attracts alot of UNCLE ( not leng chai. what the hell).

there're guys who shuffle. well. i think they are okayyy.. but not interested. HAHHA :P

so. yeah. i LOVE my celebration alot.

i love them. i love My Hun

from left : jovial ( tai kah jie ), me, debbie mama, jojo(little sister), kelvin

the owners of De Monte Carlo :) Debbie and Carol :)