all i want for christmas

oh yeah. christmas is coming .
actually i wanted to go back on that day because i miss my mother so badly. and plus the fei chai promised me that he will go back with me.

unfortunately i got my night shift on the eve till 26th. i dont know if sunday i'm gonna have night shift again. if i have. i gonna have 5 days off. well, gotta pray hard.

Semester 3 has ended today. i'm going for posting again :). 9 weeks till CNY. well this time i'm posted to Operation Theater. that's what i'm excited about. observe the surgeons in doing operation. yay. yay.. then i can explain to those WHO ARE SMOKERS!!!!!! AND ALCOHOLICS !!!!! AND EAT ALOT OF FATTY FOODS !!!!! :DDDDD

anyway, being an introvert and nerd in class was not that bad afterall. my mind is so peaceful.
and i realised that i couldn't take stress. think too much negative thinking
one tell me that everytime i compared myself to higher level, made me have negative thoughts all the time. well other people compare themselves to a lower level, made them happy in life.
actually i couldn't compare myself to a lower level because if i do, i will not progress.

hmmph. its not easy for me to change from the old jocelyn chai to a new jocelyn chai
it do take time .

Mission of 9 weeks posting

get my procedures done ( MOST IMPORTANT!!!! )

to study ( to prevent from getting bombarded by staff in specialised area - OT, Heart Centre )

slim down ( I MUST Prove to YOUUUU. and made you feel threaten. LALALA )


i wanna watch AVATAR and NINJA ASSASSIN. so badly.
can't wait to see mama.

p/s: all i want for christmas 2009 is a good lunch with you.

Twilight with him

I've watched Twilight Saga - New Moon during the weekends.

Honestly it's really disappointing because i thought there'll be more fights there.

Although its disappointing but throughout the movie, i'm laughing and whacking Colin.

Why did i whack. the conversation

*movie* Jacob took out his tshirt and stop the bleed for Bella.

Colin : WAH!!!! sai ng sai ar. take out shirt just to stop bleeding?
jocelyn : eh WHATS YOUR PROBLEM LAR!!! where to get cloth is at sea side? you jealous people has 6 packs and you have 6 in 1 ? and SO BIG SOMEMORE?
Colin : This is a body show or what ? take out shirt and show got 6 packs
Jocelyn : *whack straight*

*movie* Edward ask Bella ' will you marry me' .. - end show -

Colin : HAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHA... why never say yes? stupid lar this show
Jocelyn : *LOL* whack harder

*in the car*

Colin : Bebe, are you ok?
Jocelyn : No, my soul has left with Edward. My body has left with Jacob . :D
Colin : oklor. get down from the car lor
Jocelyn : HAHAHAHAHHA.

so yeah, he's been criticizing throught the movie was played. and i'm busy whacking him throughout the movie.

However, he knows i love the movie alot. So, he sacrificed his sweet Dota time to accompany me to watch Twilight. Actually it was a surprise that he wanted to tell me it was Twilight in the cinema hall. He told me it was astro boy this and that. In the end he just couldn't keep his surprise because of someone who is being arrogant to me :). Thanks bee :)

Twilight Saga - New moon

Twilight Saga - New Moon.

i wanna watch it so so so badly :(.

i heard it was awesome

definitely is awesome because Robert Pattinson is acting :D.

i felt in love with Twilight at that time and now i wanna watch it so badly.

wondering who will accompany me to watch. hmmph.

The guys hated it so much i dont know why maybe they are jealous because Robert Pattinson is much more romantic then them :)

sensitive

How would i wanna start with the word Sensitive? . hmmph. okay.

I am a sensitive person. or perhaps i would say i am not as sensitive as last time.

I was asking Eva whether i've hurt A or not because I couldn't remember what i do or say to other people even if its 5 minutes ago * short term memory i supposed *

Eva say there's nothing i did to A . i was like thinking why she treated me like so cold. or maybe she's been treating me like that since last time. Eva said that there's nothing happen because i've been having misunderstanding with B since early of the year. so A & B are best friends . A don't know how to talk to me etc etc.

Today i was very frustrated, annoyed, agitated, moody. because of the visit i went to. information = 0 . language=0. . sigh. i came back. and the cook refill the taugeh and accidentally splashed on my uniform. sigh. i would scold people if i'm in this mood. horribulus mood. so C is unlucky. she got sound by me . wtf.

Eva said i'm being sensitive that people dont like me and all. yeah , i am. but what can i do? i did not hurt that person but i'm treated as an enemy which i don't like. i'm tired of changing myself for other people so that they don't anti me. i'm tired of gaining good attention from people here.

Hear What Oprah says about Men :). To the Ladies :)

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is
Don't stay because you think "it will get better"
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.

He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up..

Never let a man know everything.* He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior.* Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...
Even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...
Compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...
There is nothing cute about baggage...
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...
A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...
Look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted

Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.*
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful: Dr. Phill

You should know that:
You're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one.

They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices.
Make the right one.

Ladies take care of your own hearts....

Share this with other women and men (just so they know)...

You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.

I copied this from WilsonCheah's note in facebook. i think its a great advice for the ladies who always get hurt. it do help me :).

SLeep

I never like to sleep since young especially now in the college because i think it's really wasting my time. during the weekends ( after exam) i think i spent my whole weekend sleeping and i love sleeping now more.

I gotta take Prednisolone (Steroid Medicine) to suppress my Urticaria. On the friday, i did not take it because i had migraine and bad gastric after taking it. and My urticaria came back. so i quickly took the medicine and it subsided. Steroid medicine will make me fat. it do build muscle but i did not do any exercise. so accumulation of fats will be there.:P

Class start. Assignments are coming *oh gosh*. gotta practice skills everyday next week onwards because Practical exam and Finals will be next month. so gotta struggle on the weekdays and ENJOY during the weekends but not for next month though :P



Anyway, Manchester United Vs Chelsea now :) To Manchester United <3 :)

To Colin , They Rocked :) Don't be Too excited over for it :P

allergic

last friday i had 'foong mok' . i don't know what isit called in english. have to find it out. LOL.
i went for a jab at my buttock and through my veins. and it subsided. *happy happy*

the next day, i went Times Square with Mr.Lum. at night, the foong mok came again. alright, this time i did not take any oysters. i dont know why it came back. i went to the clinic again. given medication and have to take 6 tablets 1 go once a day. i slept. i woke up. it SUBSIDE :D

and then in the evening, it came back. i have to wear long pants, his jacket to protect myself. i went to sleep. this morning i woke up, it SUBSIDE :D this evening, it came back again. with spots. i do look like a 101 dalmation. seriously.

i went to see the doctor. the doctor really dont know what to do. but what surprise me is that she asked me to make 'kunyit water' for myself which i dont know how to and not intended to do it . and she ordered medication for me. and injection is essential. so i got jab again.
this time, the jab was really painful. it seems my veins are nice to see but its fake so whenever they poke, no blood come out. 4 times i have to get poke. and its swollen and painful till now.
well, at least it subsided. i don't know if it comes back again or not, i'm really sick of looking at it.

Thanks to Mr.Lum for buying chicken essence for me. i've gotta drink that everyday to boost up my immune system. it seems, during primary school, i'm like that also. so. it came back again. HMMPH.

class starting AGAIN. exam is on the thursday, and i'm sitting on my bed, blogging unnecessary things. LOL. well. its not an easy semester though. i gotta struggle more. practical exam and finals are next month. case study to do, catching up with studies. hmmph.

p/s: i'm blogging it in a moody state. please bear with it :D